Finally speaking the unspeakable
I met John 18 years ago today.
In a couple of hours, I will make the phone calls that will begin the legal ending of my marriage, based on a conversation/agreement we had yesterday.
This was both a long time coming, and an utter, devastating shock.
Don't expect too much from me for awhile. While I know, and believe, that there will be an "after" - that I will laugh again and enjoy things again and care about things again and even trust again - right now there is just an ocean of shifting tides of pain.
Bummer blog to continue for awhile, I fear. Don't expect too much from me. I believe in healing, but right now I am well and truly broken.
In a couple of hours, I will make the phone calls that will begin the legal ending of my marriage, based on a conversation/agreement we had yesterday.
This was both a long time coming, and an utter, devastating shock.
Don't expect too much from me for awhile. While I know, and believe, that there will be an "after" - that I will laugh again and enjoy things again and care about things again and even trust again - right now there is just an ocean of shifting tides of pain.
Bummer blog to continue for awhile, I fear. Don't expect too much from me. I believe in healing, but right now I am well and truly broken.