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Ok, so update time. Things are weird at the moment. . . .
Firstly I have two jobs, I am working in The King's School, my old secondary school, I am working as a teaching assistant, it is just temporary, til Christmas, but I love it. I feel like i'm in the right place, when I'm helping the kids I feel like I'm home. I love it so much, it makes me feel like I have finally found my place. It makes me determined to become a teacher. It's such a great experience. It lets me see what makes a good and bad teacher. What do you remember about your best and worst teachers???
I am also working in a pub in the evening, so doing two jobs is hard, but i don't want to quit either of them.
My head is in a strange place at the moment, the longer I am apart from John the more I seem to miss him, i didn't expect it to feel like this. I know that sounds stupid but I really miss him. It's not like I would want to get back with him, i know i made the right choice, but still I miss him. I miss having someone to talk to, when things get too rough here I wish I could talk to him, but I can't and it makes me feel incredibly alone. It's a horrible feeling.
Nanny and granddad are living with us at the moment and it's hard, granddad can't even sit up straight anymore, he just kinda collapses gradually. And nanny takes forever to get out of a chair because she has such bad pains in her legs. It's so hard watching them both fade away. Granddad is so mean now, his words are so heartless, i know it's not him anymore, but he keeps saying how much he wishes i had never been born and what a mistake i was, stuff like that, it's hard to rememeber that it's not really him saying it, when it comes from him like it does.
Kickboxing is going well, I good to have a way to control my temper and get all this rage out.
Firstly I have two jobs, I am working in The King's School, my old secondary school, I am working as a teaching assistant, it is just temporary, til Christmas, but I love it. I feel like i'm in the right place, when I'm helping the kids I feel like I'm home. I love it so much, it makes me feel like I have finally found my place. It makes me determined to become a teacher. It's such a great experience. It lets me see what makes a good and bad teacher. What do you remember about your best and worst teachers???
I am also working in a pub in the evening, so doing two jobs is hard, but i don't want to quit either of them.
My head is in a strange place at the moment, the longer I am apart from John the more I seem to miss him, i didn't expect it to feel like this. I know that sounds stupid but I really miss him. It's not like I would want to get back with him, i know i made the right choice, but still I miss him. I miss having someone to talk to, when things get too rough here I wish I could talk to him, but I can't and it makes me feel incredibly alone. It's a horrible feeling.
Nanny and granddad are living with us at the moment and it's hard, granddad can't even sit up straight anymore, he just kinda collapses gradually. And nanny takes forever to get out of a chair because she has such bad pains in her legs. It's so hard watching them both fade away. Granddad is so mean now, his words are so heartless, i know it's not him anymore, but he keeps saying how much he wishes i had never been born and what a mistake i was, stuff like that, it's hard to rememeber that it's not really him saying it, when it comes from him like it does.
Kickboxing is going well, I good to have a way to control my temper and get all this rage out.