Another Day, Another .... Yeah, Just Another Day.
Man, you know how you look for lyrics to fit your present mood? I can't even find any. Quick, where's my soundtrack to life?
Ah, hah, found it! Well, partly. I can't find the song. But "Always" by Saliva has a lot of similar themes to my mood. (So does the chorus of Angie Stone's "Wish I Didn't Miss You", but let's not go there.)
I think I just need to betake myself somewhere else. Possibly the library. In fact, I think that's the only place I'll get any good studying done. Meh, I don't like studying on Sabbath, but I'm going to fail this PolSci midterm if I don't. And I need to start studying for Anthro tomorrow...no, I guess not until Monday. Which sucks, but I have Spanish to do tomorrow. Ugh, this up-coming week is going to suck ass. Why did they give us ANOTHER Spanish paper to do right before Spring Break???
My entries always seem to be about my need to be studying. That's because I'm almost always writing in here when I should be doing something else (like studying). But it's also because the other stuff that's going on in my life is too difficult to put into words. I find that if I try to do it in a poetic way, I just end up sounding really vague. But I know exactly what's bothering me...I just can't express it in words, and I'm just... upset by that. I'm upset that I don't have a way or even a place really to express what's going on inside of me...what's preoccupying me.
I've never been good at saying "fuck that shit" (Jen's and Vec's words...even James' words... wow, I just realized how many ppl I know have used that motto %_%). But I just don't let go of things easily. They haunt me, esp. when they have no clear cut conclusion. Open-ended endings drive me nuts. No matter what the topic.
I know what else is driving me nuts, too. It's the same thing Jen and Phil and I were talking about last night. It's the same thing that's been bugging Jen, and the same thing we've been bitching about for days. As Phil said, it's like it's being flaunted in our faces. The Erics and Catsuns and all those types of the world... how is it fair? Oh wait, life isn't fair. Yeah, yeah.
Augh, all my posts sounds damned vague. I'll have to try writing this all out in one of my other journals.
Ah, hah, found it! Well, partly. I can't find the song. But "Always" by Saliva has a lot of similar themes to my mood. (So does the chorus of Angie Stone's "Wish I Didn't Miss You", but let's not go there.)
I think I just need to betake myself somewhere else. Possibly the library. In fact, I think that's the only place I'll get any good studying done. Meh, I don't like studying on Sabbath, but I'm going to fail this PolSci midterm if I don't. And I need to start studying for Anthro tomorrow...no, I guess not until Monday. Which sucks, but I have Spanish to do tomorrow. Ugh, this up-coming week is going to suck ass. Why did they give us ANOTHER Spanish paper to do right before Spring Break???
My entries always seem to be about my need to be studying. That's because I'm almost always writing in here when I should be doing something else (like studying). But it's also because the other stuff that's going on in my life is too difficult to put into words. I find that if I try to do it in a poetic way, I just end up sounding really vague. But I know exactly what's bothering me...I just can't express it in words, and I'm just... upset by that. I'm upset that I don't have a way or even a place really to express what's going on inside of me...what's preoccupying me.
I've never been good at saying "fuck that shit" (Jen's and Vec's words...even James' words... wow, I just realized how many ppl I know have used that motto %_%). But I just don't let go of things easily. They haunt me, esp. when they have no clear cut conclusion. Open-ended endings drive me nuts. No matter what the topic.
I know what else is driving me nuts, too. It's the same thing Jen and Phil and I were talking about last night. It's the same thing that's been bugging Jen, and the same thing we've been bitching about for days. As Phil said, it's like it's being flaunted in our faces. The Erics and Catsuns and all those types of the world... how is it fair? Oh wait, life isn't fair. Yeah, yeah.
Augh, all my posts sounds damned vague. I'll have to try writing this all out in one of my other journals.