i hope you can hear me, as i remember it clearly.
things have been off lately. these past couple of weeks have been hard. i dont think i can point it as to one or even a few different things, but all in all, its been hard. school as most definietly taken a toll on me. its almost as if im starting college for the first time seeing as if now i actually declared a major, a major i know i wont change and one that im "stuck with" to say the least. choosing to, of course. but from hating any type of math and science in highschool to learning, studying, breathing it what is almost 24/7 now is a change. im proud of myself that im doing this, and so far being successful and positive. and im not saying its not hard for everyone else, but its just ....different.
ive been absouletly exhusted. i dont know if its becuase im not eating right, not used to getting up at 6:30 6 days a week, or just that im lazy. i get home from school and its a struggle to do anything else but take a nap. ive become very worried about my health, ive always been OCD about it. not in an excersizing, eating healthy way, but that somethings wrong, and its just a matter of time before one out of the five doctors i go to finds it. i think most of this is all in my head but its hard to ignore.
i havent had any type a social life since school started. i havent seen much of alicia, caitlin, nor anybody else. i miss going out and staying out but i just cant do it anymore. i guess thats both good and bad. i miss them terribly though.
ive gotten a lot closer with Faith. Im really glad that i met her when i did. i really believe that people walk in and out of your life for reasons, reasons we aren't usually unaware of until they are either gone or its just so clear you see it from the beginning. Faith is the most beautiful girl ive met. inside and out. she inspires me in so many ways, and i hope she knows that. i cant imagine going to work without her. shes the type of girl that from the minute she introduces herself you almost are just taken back by her kindess. its hard to come across people like Faith today. Im so glad shes one of my bestfriends and im so happy knowing she'll be in my life for a very long time. i wish i could be more like her. not in the jealous way, but how giving and accepting she is. shes going to be so fricken successful in everything she does. shes already amazing at hair, being a mother, and soon a wonderful wife!
Faith and I had an amazing time at the hair show yesterday in Grand Island. Definietly set both of us back, id say more than 200 dollars. finally got my CHI hair-dryer and trimmer set. It was motivating going to the show and watching different classes, it gets me so inspired to continue to do hair. to the point where it was hard for me to get up this morning and go to class because as i watch mid to late 20 year old people on the floor doing platform work , traveling the world, having a blast, meeting new people, it almost made me to stop and ask myself what i was doing back in college again. but its funny when i think about Euphoria, i go "ooooooh, this is why im back in school!"
well im off to study more sin, cosine, and tan graphs! Hofner, out!
ive been absouletly exhusted. i dont know if its becuase im not eating right, not used to getting up at 6:30 6 days a week, or just that im lazy. i get home from school and its a struggle to do anything else but take a nap. ive become very worried about my health, ive always been OCD about it. not in an excersizing, eating healthy way, but that somethings wrong, and its just a matter of time before one out of the five doctors i go to finds it. i think most of this is all in my head but its hard to ignore.
i havent had any type a social life since school started. i havent seen much of alicia, caitlin, nor anybody else. i miss going out and staying out but i just cant do it anymore. i guess thats both good and bad. i miss them terribly though.
ive gotten a lot closer with Faith. Im really glad that i met her when i did. i really believe that people walk in and out of your life for reasons, reasons we aren't usually unaware of until they are either gone or its just so clear you see it from the beginning. Faith is the most beautiful girl ive met. inside and out. she inspires me in so many ways, and i hope she knows that. i cant imagine going to work without her. shes the type of girl that from the minute she introduces herself you almost are just taken back by her kindess. its hard to come across people like Faith today. Im so glad shes one of my bestfriends and im so happy knowing she'll be in my life for a very long time. i wish i could be more like her. not in the jealous way, but how giving and accepting she is. shes going to be so fricken successful in everything she does. shes already amazing at hair, being a mother, and soon a wonderful wife!
Faith and I had an amazing time at the hair show yesterday in Grand Island. Definietly set both of us back, id say more than 200 dollars. finally got my CHI hair-dryer and trimmer set. It was motivating going to the show and watching different classes, it gets me so inspired to continue to do hair. to the point where it was hard for me to get up this morning and go to class because as i watch mid to late 20 year old people on the floor doing platform work , traveling the world, having a blast, meeting new people, it almost made me to stop and ask myself what i was doing back in college again. but its funny when i think about Euphoria, i go "ooooooh, this is why im back in school!"
well im off to study more sin, cosine, and tan graphs! Hofner, out!