dear zachie,
i can't decide if cocorosie makes me happy or sad. thinking about you makes me so happy but so sad. i don't know how i'm supposed to feel so i stopped trying to control it and just feel it and i cried for the first time in months but i was kinda laughing at the same time, it felt really good. i really wish you were here. then i feel bad for wishing you were here because you're probably somewhere so much better knowing something none of us know and i'm just being selfish. i'm a mess, obviously...miss you tho.