Life lessons, stress, and attempting sanity
There is so much going on right now, so much great and so much bad. Financially I am way in the hole, hurting for quite a bit, and getting a job at this point wouldn't really help me out of the current situation. It would help me out of future situations, but what to do right now? The thought remains though that getting even a better part time job would be a good idea on the financial front. However, I do see the possibility of it affecting other parts of my life in negative ways. That shouldn't be the case, but when trying to finish a degree and in a new relationship time is very important. Of course school is my first priority. I am of course forgetting to do the one thing that I know works, that is...doing the footwork that I can, and turning the rest over to the LADY to take care of. I have been seriously thinking about getting back to my meetings. However, I have been out of the loop for a year, and it would certainly take humility on my part to come in and say that although I felt stagnant, what I didn't realize at the time was that I was doing a lot of unconcious maintenance by hitting a meeting that I just can't get in therapy. Anyway, so much going on right now. Really tring to focus on the positive and not get all freaked out and bitchy. I'm not too sure where this is going so I will end it here, and right more on the positive stuff when my head is in a better place.