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so everything is happening at once..
the last couple of weeks with kasey has been amazing.. god the last couple of days have been breath taking.. but it's just so much at once.. today he said i've entered into a new kind of beautiful.. and that makes me feel amazing.. he's the only one that it matters what i look like .. his prom was amazing and i had so much fun.. my prom started out slow and then picked up.. so many things i'll never forget... if i was with anyone else that night might habve been ruined.. god when i love you doesn;t seem like enough and yet there are no other words to say.. i needed this.. it'll last me the rest of my life.. after prom we went to carolines (both proms) and that was fun and then after my prom we went out to breakfast and had silver dollar pancakes.. then went to bed and woke up.. kasey picked me up and i met his grandmother for the frist time.. who was increadibly sweet.. and he graduated from iona prep.. and i've never been so proud of him. my baby;s a smarty pants he got a special medial too.. then went out to dinner with his family and kasey took me home.. but first got increadibly lost in heartsdale.. but it's never too bad to be lost with kase.. tonight he took me out for ice cream which turned into milk shakes which were good.. god my heart is still pounding .. it's been over two years and i've created some hard times and we have been though alot.. and i still love him and i still want him around. he;s worth fighting for
speaking of someone worth fighting for.. i love stephanie.. no matter what happens i love her.. in life you'll only meet a few people like her and i'll never take advantage of that. in my book she;ll always be number one and deep down inside of everyone else they know she is too.. the thing with stephy is she;s better then anything victory could ever produce and i am proud to be her friend. she took the time to get to know me and i had the privelage to get to kno her.. a great man once said " What makes the difference between your success or failure is you. It’s a choice. You can choose success, you can choose failure, or you can choose to give away the choice...Each of us has a choice. We have the choice to stand up and be counted for what we think is right. We have the choice to give of ourselves and pack those parachutes. We have a choice to be part of the team. When you get older and look back on your life, you don’t count dollars, you count the parachutes you packed." and if that man is right.. then life is counted more then just personal achivements or self proclained titles- but rather the people around you who love and support you.. and god i miss her lik crazy right now cause she;s away.. and i can't wait till she gets back.. she's too classy to say anything.. and she;ll be mad at me for saying that becuase she;s a great young women but i have the choice to stand up and be counted for what i think is right...
school is over.. whoohooo.. i'm so happy i was starting to lose my temper with some people.. graduate in a week from tonight.. only have to see those people four more times.. i will miss some of them.. and i will keep in touch.. but the rest .. good riddens.. last night at the iona graduation i started to think about what next week is going to be like.. saying goodbye to everyone and a place i've "learned" for the past 4 years.. fuckin sucks that they have to end it like this.. but then that's victory for you..
tomarrow i have work.. today i worked.. tomarrow night i'll see kasey.. god i love him.. i'm gonna call stephy tomarrow too and tell her i love her .. so maybe i'll just go to bed now and wait till tomarrow so i can do those things..
beck
the last couple of weeks with kasey has been amazing.. god the last couple of days have been breath taking.. but it's just so much at once.. today he said i've entered into a new kind of beautiful.. and that makes me feel amazing.. he's the only one that it matters what i look like .. his prom was amazing and i had so much fun.. my prom started out slow and then picked up.. so many things i'll never forget... if i was with anyone else that night might habve been ruined.. god when i love you doesn;t seem like enough and yet there are no other words to say.. i needed this.. it'll last me the rest of my life.. after prom we went to carolines (both proms) and that was fun and then after my prom we went out to breakfast and had silver dollar pancakes.. then went to bed and woke up.. kasey picked me up and i met his grandmother for the frist time.. who was increadibly sweet.. and he graduated from iona prep.. and i've never been so proud of him. my baby;s a smarty pants he got a special medial too.. then went out to dinner with his family and kasey took me home.. but first got increadibly lost in heartsdale.. but it's never too bad to be lost with kase.. tonight he took me out for ice cream which turned into milk shakes which were good.. god my heart is still pounding .. it's been over two years and i've created some hard times and we have been though alot.. and i still love him and i still want him around. he;s worth fighting for
speaking of someone worth fighting for.. i love stephanie.. no matter what happens i love her.. in life you'll only meet a few people like her and i'll never take advantage of that. in my book she;ll always be number one and deep down inside of everyone else they know she is too.. the thing with stephy is she;s better then anything victory could ever produce and i am proud to be her friend. she took the time to get to know me and i had the privelage to get to kno her.. a great man once said " What makes the difference between your success or failure is you. It’s a choice. You can choose success, you can choose failure, or you can choose to give away the choice...Each of us has a choice. We have the choice to stand up and be counted for what we think is right. We have the choice to give of ourselves and pack those parachutes. We have a choice to be part of the team. When you get older and look back on your life, you don’t count dollars, you count the parachutes you packed." and if that man is right.. then life is counted more then just personal achivements or self proclained titles- but rather the people around you who love and support you.. and god i miss her lik crazy right now cause she;s away.. and i can't wait till she gets back.. she's too classy to say anything.. and she;ll be mad at me for saying that becuase she;s a great young women but i have the choice to stand up and be counted for what i think is right...
school is over.. whoohooo.. i'm so happy i was starting to lose my temper with some people.. graduate in a week from tonight.. only have to see those people four more times.. i will miss some of them.. and i will keep in touch.. but the rest .. good riddens.. last night at the iona graduation i started to think about what next week is going to be like.. saying goodbye to everyone and a place i've "learned" for the past 4 years.. fuckin sucks that they have to end it like this.. but then that's victory for you..
tomarrow i have work.. today i worked.. tomarrow night i'll see kasey.. god i love him.. i'm gonna call stephy tomarrow too and tell her i love her .. so maybe i'll just go to bed now and wait till tomarrow so i can do those things..
beck