My heart won't stop beating
Today I signed up for class at SPC. It was quite an ordeal, but I was expecting it, since that's the way things go for me. I SIGNED UP FOR CLASS!!! I was so anxious and scared and sick to my stomach, I thought I was going to pass out or throw up on the Admissions Desk. No one ever thought I'd get my rear in gear and everyone thought I was making excuses. As soon as I got back in the truck and looked at my schedule, I started to cry. I couldn't believe it was finally happening! I still can't believe it! You guys probably don't think much of going to school, though it's a change. It's so different going back to school. I can't even explain it fully. This is the step I've needed for a long time, and I finally have the means to do it. I'm so happy, typing about it now makes my eyes well up. I'm just so overwhelmed, and anxious, and scared to death, and wide-eyed, and busy and so many emotions (not that I'm ever not)
(On another note, I came home from work, and RITALIN had licked her foot to the point of bleeding AGAIN, so I put the collar back on)