retarded fucking vicious cycles
It's finals week, everyone is on meltdown... should I be doing something? Why does everyone look as though they're about to vomit? Does it really matter anymore at this point anyway?
What has it taken for me to stop over-analyzing, contemplating, "what-if" ing? Being around someone else who also over-analyzes?
All I'm ever looking for is a sense of peace and contentment, NOT utter happiness. That means a sense of solidity for the future, in a relationship, and that comes with a sense of trust. But I can't trust if I don't know that outcome. But there won't BE an outcome if I don't trust. Maybe we should all just set ourselves up for failure time and time again until we gamble blindly and get lucky. Or just stop caring about the consequences. By "we" I mean me.
What has it taken for me to stop over-analyzing, contemplating, "what-if" ing? Being around someone else who also over-analyzes?
All I'm ever looking for is a sense of peace and contentment, NOT utter happiness. That means a sense of solidity for the future, in a relationship, and that comes with a sense of trust. But I can't trust if I don't know that outcome. But there won't BE an outcome if I don't trust. Maybe we should all just set ourselves up for failure time and time again until we gamble blindly and get lucky. Or just stop caring about the consequences. By "we" I mean me.