Oh, wouldn't it be loverly?
I've been trying to decide what i want to do with my life. I could be a teacher, i love the idea of teaching someone that just loves to learn and will eat up what i tell them. But then i start thinking about my elementary experience..It was one of the worst times in my life. I didn't have any friends, no on liked me, no one wanted anything to do with me, my brothers hated me, and my parents loved me but had to deal with me. My friends were the ones in my head, my stuffed animals, the imaginary friends that i would create. I had a very lonely childhood, but then would i be the teacher that could help a child like me? Would i recognize them and be able to help them before it did any damage? It's a very vulnerable age, if the age goes on for too long it can actually effect the child..Do i want to work in a field that deals with the root of some of my issues?
Another problem in the salary, a teacher will never really make a decent amount of money. Oh of course i could live, but how comfortably?
Then I was talking to my parents, they told me that i should find a job that makes the issue of money seem small and insignificant. When i heard this the career that screams out at me is a career in animal care taking. When ever i would hear about other people working with animals i always get a tickle, should that be my career? Animals have always been there for me where people haven't. I would die to take care of a cub or some exotic animal. But why does the rode to this seem so much harder? Things you want always have to be harder, don't they?
I am so sick of wanting to be that girl in the movies. You can pretend for that hour and a half that its you, its your dreams that you know are going to come true, its you that has the life worth living for.
eh i could die
I'm truly sorry i have to feel so melancholy.
yeah yeah..self pity, what ever everyone does it.
I was filling out some of the papers for the registration on the 20th... ok so why do we say what we have contributed to our school? I contributed to my friends lives.. not the school. I don't feel that i have done anything for that school.
Another problem in the salary, a teacher will never really make a decent amount of money. Oh of course i could live, but how comfortably?
Then I was talking to my parents, they told me that i should find a job that makes the issue of money seem small and insignificant. When i heard this the career that screams out at me is a career in animal care taking. When ever i would hear about other people working with animals i always get a tickle, should that be my career? Animals have always been there for me where people haven't. I would die to take care of a cub or some exotic animal. But why does the rode to this seem so much harder? Things you want always have to be harder, don't they?
I am so sick of wanting to be that girl in the movies. You can pretend for that hour and a half that its you, its your dreams that you know are going to come true, its you that has the life worth living for.
eh i could die
I'm truly sorry i have to feel so melancholy.
yeah yeah..self pity, what ever everyone does it.
I was filling out some of the papers for the registration on the 20th... ok so why do we say what we have contributed to our school? I contributed to my friends lives.. not the school. I don't feel that i have done anything for that school.