[.11]7a.m.
7am...and I wake up.
7:30 I wait for the bus.
8:00 I walk to another bus because my bus never came.
8:30 I find out my bus route is gone... taken away from me.
8:45 I get on a metro-train that drops me off 20 minutes from school.
I get to class 15 minutes late and it's all my fault.
I never save money. I should at least try, otherwise I'll be forced to commit to using the metro system which is gradually falling apart.
I mean I save money but things come up like.. the phone bill, the cable bill, college and I eat out too.. but what else am I suppose to do... starve? I don't get home usually til 9p.m. I don't normally eat breakfast either because I wake up at 7am. I don't know. Maybe I'm doing something wrong and I'm too full of myself to ask for help... but I hate asking for help... I hate asking my family or anyone else.
I want to do stuff on my own and I can't and it makes me feel helpless to the point of crying. But whatever. I'm suppose to be happy all the time and have sun shine come out of my ass and be cheerful.
I go to work at 3p.m. today... I can't deal with work right now... I feel like either skipping or quitting and neither one I can afford to do. I already spent most of my vacation hours... but I barely did antthing "vacationy".
I wish I had a car... like my own car that no one could claim when they need to go somewhere....
Whatever. I'm ranting and making myself more depressed.