karmageddon
losing a friend permanently is new to me, when i found out ej took he's life it was a shock and a stab in the back. days before the incident we were all talking about how idiotic and senseless it was to commit suicide, dont get me wrong i joke about it sometimes but self pity is just to hard to resist...but you didnt have to go on and do that shit man. friends and i wher at ralphy's spoiling el liver when pat stormed in like cops wher after him. out of all the news in the world i had to hear that especially when your not in the right state of mind. at first when pat said ej hung himself, i thought he was still alive atleast critical condition. those three words will forever burn in my brain, "he is dead." i didnt know what to think or say i just stood there...surreal shit i swear to you. seeing him at the veiwing room at the hospitol wasnt easy either. the look on he's mothers face, all i could do was hug her...i didnt fucking know what to say. when ej was laying there it looked like he was just sleeping he had a tube in his mouth so automatically i still thought he was alive. followed the tube with my eyes to see where it lead, it was cut off about half way. thats when it hit me, the eerie thing was the last thing he said to us was "i'll see you guys tonight." i dont know if he meant at the hospital. at the funeral we blazed blunts after everyone left he would've wanted that. where ever you are buddy i know there wont be alchol there...i may be wrong.
devils never cry but that given day was an exception.