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today i got back from band camp it was ok i got to know some people better like jas witch was cool but there is this freashmen john who fuck'n pissed me off he kept saying shit like retard look at those retards and what i call the retard noise that realy realy pissed me off being my brother is well handicap and i was like dude shut up he was like what ever but it was bull cus when he's spit'n his game with the girls he's all nice and gots them think'n he's nice but dam dude all those tard coments he made actuuly made me cry like the ride home i was think'n bout like how my brother is going to have a major surgurty where he could die in and then i kept think'n bout all that crap he said and it realy realy fuck'n hurt and i started to cry thank god people were sleeping but also he was proud of being a homophobi (i no i might be wail'n on him right now but i've been needing to let this out for fourdays) that pissed me and jas off BAD so we acted gay around him (even thought we always act gay) cus he was proud of "beating up gays" at the movies and stuff and getting kicked out and some of you know how personal some of that is to me as much as the retard stuff but sunday night i was talk'n to necole about my brother and stuff and it got to the part about his surgry and i started to cry and her and molly really helped i want to thank them for the card they gave me but also me and jimmy put a breakfest boredo in that dudes suitcase