Dec 31, 2004 14:58
"Sometimes you've got to learn to let go
Why does my life just fall apart?
When I listen to my heart
you know I can't leave you behind
Just keep those memories in your mind"
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This year has gone by way too fast.. Things have changed, Friendships were ended, and new ones were gained
Too many tears have been shed that I would’ve liked. I’ve possibly lost one of the most important friends in the world. 2004 was an incredible year. It’s time to say good bye to, Andrew R. (Andrew I never stopped loving you..), Cannon (maybe it’s not over..), Allison, Chris V, Eric A, Tim V, Nick T.
And the most important person that I need to forget about is Ryan E. This is the hardest thing that I will have to do, but it’s been so long and there is no need to even think about him. I don’t know if I can bring up the courage to throw away his pictures. Or forget all of the memories and burn all those songs I wrote about him.
Allison has opened my mind to so many more things and 7th hour was the coolest with her. Taking the ping pong table into the hallway and playing.. Instead of running around the track, We ran to my car and just sat there and talked. Concerts.. Death Cab for Cutie and Ben Kweller was fun. Yes laugh at me all you want.
To a lot of people, this election was the most important and what not. But that was definantly something big that happened this year. Not to me though.
No new Lord of the Rings movie to look forward too, lol
This school year is actually pretty good. I’ve made so many new friends @ school, I feel I fit in a little bit more. I talk more. Kim and I have definantely become better friends and have hung out more. I now know that Brie doesn’t hate me, hahaha. Kathy, believe it or not has taught me a lot, and I love her for that. Matt N, makes me laugh so much! Ilya, he is so awesome! And lastly, possibly the best thing that’s happened is Justin. You wouldn’t believe how I feel.. idk call me corny.
Car Accident number has gone up to what.. 2, I think. Me hitting matt W. (we’re still best friends, thank god! Brian, Erin and Ali were with me, haha) um and most recently with a curb. Yeah don’t’ want to get into that saying I spent like 155 dollars replacing my 2 front tires.. however I think I drive better now!
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This year really couldn’t end any better. I’m surrounded with so many more people I love. My asshole neighbors MOVED TODAY! And being optimistic am hoping for something super good to come out of their move. But on my way to work today I sort of flipped off the lady.. so I think I ruined my good thing. But anywho I’ve been wanting to do that for a while. ...
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This may be just be, but while feeling happy, it’s depressing, because I think back and ask myself, “Have I done anything to make any impact on someone?” If I have, Please Tell me. Because I Love You very much.
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"So this is the new year
And i don't feel any different
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance (in the distance)
So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions
So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogues bleed into one
I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then i could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that can hold us back"