Hmm
It is weird to miss something that you thought you would never even want.Like---desperately miss. It makes me think perhaps I should take a longer look at some of the conclusions I have reached in the past without really thinking. I am stubborn most of the time (who isn't?) and when I've decided something for myself, like something I want and something that I feel--it is like concrete. However, in light of recent developments in my emotions and wants from life or people I think maybe it is time to think about how I decide these things.