How many times can it escalate 'till it elevates to a place I can't breathe?

[radioactvebetty]

isn't it funny how fast time passes when all you want to do is press pause and yet when you want to fast forward X16 it goes slow it's almost going in reverse

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[harnessyourchi]

This is really weird that you posted this right now because I actually opened up livejournal because I was thinking about you and your last post and I had been meaning to respond to it.

I wish that I had something to say besides the cliché things that everyone else tells you that only piss you off (i.e. “Time heals all wounds,”) because it’s fucking bullshit, and you don’t want to wait around for “time,” however long that is, to fix it. You don’t want to wait until 6 months from now when you’ll probably feel better about it, or even a week, because when you feel shitty like that, you feel shitty every single second of the day.

I honestly can’t think of anything worse than that feeling, of just feeling awful and not knowing what else is going to make you feel better, and feeling like there ISN’T going to be anything that makes you feel better.

But even though it’s cliché, I’m just going to say that it will get better, because it will. I know the feeling all too well of feeling insecure, and feeling like no one is ever going to care, or why should they, and if I find the right person I’m going to fuck it up. But I know for a fact that you are an awesome person and in this case you are going to need to listen to an outside person that can be objective about how great you are. You are not a weak person, and the fact that you want to be stronger just proves that.

I think that you will be able to find the positive in this. You’re absolutely right, four years is a long time and a huge amount of dedication and love and energy you devoted. But at the same time, you are your own person, you’ve probably changed immensely in the last 4 years, and now you can be just that person, in the new point you’re at in your life - and wholly just you, not connected to anyone else. And that can be a really liberating and exciting thing, which might be what you need to feel like you’re enjoying your life again.

And on that note, I miss you a lot and we need to hang out. We can go out and get tanked and have fun, you can come hang out with my friends if you want some new people to be around, or we can hang out and get coffee and just talk about life or something. But we really should. Let me know when you’re free. <3