still going
almost one-hundred rolls of film- check
six gallons of d-67 - check
four one-hundred sheet boxes of 8x10 photo paper - check
one fifty box of 11x14 photo paper - check
a two-hundred-and-fifty sheet box of 5x7 photo paper used in 2 days - check
five and a half recently empty boxes filled with mediocre prints - check
fifty-ish hours in the darkroom - check
ten hours developing film - check
five hours scanning film - check
five hours in the digital print lab - check
i've honestly spent over $1000 on photography supplies, and i spent another $150 today for matting materials. I just wrote a 1500 word research paper on nan goldin (she pretty much wrote the book on cross-processing back in the 70's, and did it long before it was fashionable). i have not used a camera in a while (no time!), and i feel like i'm dying without that little german gadget in my hands. i can't wait to get all my work matted, and for the photography program portfolio review night on thursday. i just really want to see what everyone else has been looking all stressed over. but really, i just want this semester to be done, so I can start using the catalyst for this whole mess that my life revolves around.
jrrrd and i were talking, and we figured out that there is no 'enough.' meaning, when you think you've worked hard enough, you're done; you've gone as far as you're ever going to go. i've worked so fucking hard these past few months, but i just want to get back at it; i haven't worked hard 'enough.' i just don't like the boring parts like matting and and measuring.
i never want to stop shooting film, and listening to bob dylan (live 1964) in my car.
i think over the past few days i have forgotten what it feels like to be envious.
i don't envy anyone, i've got it all.
six gallons of d-67 - check
four one-hundred sheet boxes of 8x10 photo paper - check
one fifty box of 11x14 photo paper - check
a two-hundred-and-fifty sheet box of 5x7 photo paper used in 2 days - check
five and a half recently empty boxes filled with mediocre prints - check
fifty-ish hours in the darkroom - check
ten hours developing film - check
five hours scanning film - check
five hours in the digital print lab - check
i've honestly spent over $1000 on photography supplies, and i spent another $150 today for matting materials. I just wrote a 1500 word research paper on nan goldin (she pretty much wrote the book on cross-processing back in the 70's, and did it long before it was fashionable). i have not used a camera in a while (no time!), and i feel like i'm dying without that little german gadget in my hands. i can't wait to get all my work matted, and for the photography program portfolio review night on thursday. i just really want to see what everyone else has been looking all stressed over. but really, i just want this semester to be done, so I can start using the catalyst for this whole mess that my life revolves around.
jrrrd and i were talking, and we figured out that there is no 'enough.' meaning, when you think you've worked hard enough, you're done; you've gone as far as you're ever going to go. i've worked so fucking hard these past few months, but i just want to get back at it; i haven't worked hard 'enough.' i just don't like the boring parts like matting and and measuring.
i never want to stop shooting film, and listening to bob dylan (live 1964) in my car.
i think over the past few days i have forgotten what it feels like to be envious.
i don't envy anyone, i've got it all.