Old Habits and other Crap
My Current Condition:
Kinda giddy, and horny. I just finished watching Sucker Punch and my schoolgirl uniform fetish has been activated as well as my shoe fetish. Also new vibrator has not yet arrived in the mail so I'm "saving" myself for that.
I'm still jobless and living with my mother. I've kinda moved out of my dads place because he kinda pisses me off... a lot. I still really want my own place, but a job and a car come first. My design business is still in the toilet and no place around here seems to be hiring. Shit sux. Anyway, my application for food stams came through so at least I can help out with groceries. Its not as bad as I thought it would be, at least now I don't have to pay for snacks.
In other news I've kinda started shoplifting... again. Why? Honestly, I think I'm just bored. I don't go to work, I'm not in school right now, and all I do is stay at home and watch Desperate Housewives and Edgemont. Its the only excitement I get anymore. I think mom knows too, she hasnt said anything about it. I've been letting all kinds of stuff 'slip' around her lately, like my new found interest in satanism. That reminds me I need to make a nifty little post on my satanism and how my brain works sooner or later.
Apparently I have some serious issues with a lack of remorse and other importiant emotions, online therapy can be fun. Honestly I don't see the problem, but I have been told before that I must have some kind of mental wires crossed because of the way I act. Maybe I should see someone professionally, but I like the way I think and I feel it saves me a lot of potential grief.
Poptarts are done, gonna go eat and take a nap then maybe play some SecondLife.
Kinda giddy, and horny. I just finished watching Sucker Punch and my schoolgirl uniform fetish has been activated as well as my shoe fetish. Also new vibrator has not yet arrived in the mail so I'm "saving" myself for that.
I'm still jobless and living with my mother. I've kinda moved out of my dads place because he kinda pisses me off... a lot. I still really want my own place, but a job and a car come first. My design business is still in the toilet and no place around here seems to be hiring. Shit sux. Anyway, my application for food stams came through so at least I can help out with groceries. Its not as bad as I thought it would be, at least now I don't have to pay for snacks.
In other news I've kinda started shoplifting... again. Why? Honestly, I think I'm just bored. I don't go to work, I'm not in school right now, and all I do is stay at home and watch Desperate Housewives and Edgemont. Its the only excitement I get anymore. I think mom knows too, she hasnt said anything about it. I've been letting all kinds of stuff 'slip' around her lately, like my new found interest in satanism. That reminds me I need to make a nifty little post on my satanism and how my brain works sooner or later.
Apparently I have some serious issues with a lack of remorse and other importiant emotions, online therapy can be fun. Honestly I don't see the problem, but I have been told before that I must have some kind of mental wires crossed because of the way I act. Maybe I should see someone professionally, but I like the way I think and I feel it saves me a lot of potential grief.
Poptarts are done, gonna go eat and take a nap then maybe play some SecondLife.