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Aug 10, 2006 19:22

...clearing my mind.

I have good masters, all of whom I have chosen in recognition that they are my betters in very particular arenas.

I went through a very long vacation through the underworld, where certain things just sort of slowly disintegrated around me. Some things were good about it, but some things were not. Regeneration feels like a feeding frenzy, or like the corpse bits of Frankensteins Monster having electricity re-animate the disparate parts. This is what casting off dead skin is like.

Everyone should be throroughly manipulated by someone other than their parents at least once in their life, hopefully when things are going well for them, and hopefully just far enough to where it takes them to the threshhold of total disintegration and despair. It might help a lot of people out there to take a page out of Buddha's book and learn to nullify desire... so long as they subsequently reach the breaking point where they actively decide what desires to choose to cultivate. The immovable point? I've found a few. One of them is building upon a first principle of an instantaneously invokable willingness to die, so that you may constantly choose the terms by which you live.

-Matt
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