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So bummed. Just did a bunch of stretches for flexibility for the first time in probably months. I haven't been able to take care of things like this, and had frankly given up on getting great flexibility, even though it'd be a dream to be able to do the splits.
Well, I've lost a good bit of it. And I don't think I'll be able to get it back, because once school starts up again I'll be busy as last time and not have time to regularly work out and stretch. And that sucks. I guess I kind of want to have "it all," in a way-- great fitness, a full time job, and full time school, plus having time with Mitch and friends, and art, and every interest I have being pursued. Something's gotta give, it just sucks that it's my body. I talk like this, and I don't even have kids! I am so scared that when I do have kids, I'm going to not have time to take care of myself-- I know, a baby will be way more important-- but I have a pretty high standard of what's pretty, and I am scared to deal with what's gonna happen when my boobs sag, I have stretch marks, and absolutely no time to work out and do my hair.
Well, I've lost a good bit of it. And I don't think I'll be able to get it back, because once school starts up again I'll be busy as last time and not have time to regularly work out and stretch. And that sucks. I guess I kind of want to have "it all," in a way-- great fitness, a full time job, and full time school, plus having time with Mitch and friends, and art, and every interest I have being pursued. Something's gotta give, it just sucks that it's my body. I talk like this, and I don't even have kids! I am so scared that when I do have kids, I'm going to not have time to take care of myself-- I know, a baby will be way more important-- but I have a pretty high standard of what's pretty, and I am scared to deal with what's gonna happen when my boobs sag, I have stretch marks, and absolutely no time to work out and do my hair.