i'd like to say that you're my only fear

[radiantpallor]

so i dont try hard enough for the things i want.

and, yeah, that's more than a little obvious, now that i think about it.

it always happens that way.

and, honestly, i cant see any way to change it.

i'm such a passive person. i just let things happen.

i CANT be more outgoing. i CANT be less shy.

i just cant.

so, not only do i have the fact that i'm just not MEANT to be happy,

i also dont have the ability to create happiness for myself.

i'm so fucked.