After the dark the sun must rise...
hope my subject quote is true..cause I need it. I'm actually unhappy at the moment. Its nothing that anyone's done. Its just me in myself. I guess I'm just in one of those moods again. I've been feeling like this a lot lately. People start thinking I'm acting weird and probably talk about me, I dunno. I just can't always be my happy peppy self. Sorry if this seems all not like me and depressing, and by the time everyone reads it hopefully I'll be feeling better. Nights are harder for me now tho. I feel like I'm being attacked everynight. About my looks, my size (whether that be too small or too large), whether I'm doing stuff wrong in relationships, losing Marcus. I sometimes get to a point where I would just like to go jump off a cliff. not using that lightly. I'm sorry I'm sure this seems all dark and depressing and doesn't sound like it should come from me..but sometimes there is stuff buried deep down that doesn't come out when speaking. so could you guys just pray for me? I really need it. for focus on God. thanks bunchees. anywho... my day, long and boring and rainy. but I like rainy:-) no hw! cept to study for chemistry! NEXT WEEK! OOO GUESS WHAT!!! COME TO FATHOM FRIDAY NIGHT! why you ask? MARCUS'S BAND IS PLAYING!!!! FOR SURE!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! ok sorry...spaz moment. I'm so excited. we're coming home early from J-city..:-) anywho, had a girls and guys game tonight. both away so had to go to those. girls won! guys lost! oh well. tomorrow service project and then I'm off half a day!! SWEET LOVIN!! leave for J-city on wednesday! anywho I gtg to bed! Ciao! Love! ~Elyse