Wasted Tears
Alright...I'm going to settle this before it goes any farther. Last night I was quite upset to read that last weekend's events seemed to happen without me, and it looks like NO ONE intended on even calling me. Heck, I know that's the size of it all. You can't be a part of something you never felt welcome in anyway, and besides the fact I can't live that life anyhow. Getting wasted every single weekend isn't really how I like to spend my time, and that's how it usually ends up. The people I named out were the people that are here when I need them. I'm sorry Jay and Teresa for not including the both of you, because I know that both of you have been here for me and I care about each of you so much individually. As far as the whole little 'crew' crap, I should've known not to even attempt to get in with all of them in the first place. I remember telling Brian the weekend that we went out that someone was going to end up hurt from it all, and if it keeps going like it does..It will happen. So, in a way I see it as a sign of God that I got away from it, so I shouldn't feel so lonely. Teebo, Rickey will get your license, and you'll get it back in time because you see him more than me.
Wow, two actual weeks (or three weeks school wise) left. In a way I'm glad of that..Well, actually it's all I'm looking forward to. I'm thinking about just taking a weekend trip to Florida instead of going all out, because I've been to Cancun before..It isn't THAT worth spending nearly $1,000+ on. Even if I do go on vacation, again it'll more than likely be alone..*Sigh* This is why I hate letting anyone get to my heart, friends or relationship wise. Either way it seems nowadays I get my heart broken...Or what's left of it gets broken. I'm just waiting for someone to worry about me as much as I worry about everyone else. Until then I'm going somewhat numb to those around me, with the exception of Patrick. He makes me feel about the closest I've ever been to feeling loved. Speaking of which I need to call him, so *LOVES*
Kit
Wow, two actual weeks (or three weeks school wise) left. In a way I'm glad of that..Well, actually it's all I'm looking forward to. I'm thinking about just taking a weekend trip to Florida instead of going all out, because I've been to Cancun before..It isn't THAT worth spending nearly $1,000+ on. Even if I do go on vacation, again it'll more than likely be alone..*Sigh* This is why I hate letting anyone get to my heart, friends or relationship wise. Either way it seems nowadays I get my heart broken...Or what's left of it gets broken. I'm just waiting for someone to worry about me as much as I worry about everyone else. Until then I'm going somewhat numb to those around me, with the exception of Patrick. He makes me feel about the closest I've ever been to feeling loved. Speaking of which I need to call him, so *LOVES*
Kit