I Hope I'll Dream Of You, Cause It's Taking My Life Away
Well, as stated in the previous little entry, today has been one of my low days. I know I have about five million of these, but some days they're deeper than others. I just feel a bit unappreciated is all. Sagan has of yet to talk to me more than a couple of times this week, and I've ended up doing nothing for my break besides work/sleep/or be on this damned computer. I'm lonely among other things, because the faint glimmers and tinkles of these IMs just aren't enough to satisfy me. I just need a friend around, so hopefully that will happen tomorrow. If it doesn't I might just end up sitting on the Ruritan steps alone.
I don't know really who is going to it, mainly because I hardly talk to anyone besides Teebo, Teresa, Ogre, or Brian anymore. Everyone else just somewhat stopped talking to me or vice versa. Maybe I'm doing this intentionally, but I really just have the need to be around everyone...Not push them away. Have I changed? What is it that's going on with me that's making me be so alone? It hurts more than it seems.
My body is worn from today's manual labor fest. My hands are all sore from painting all day. I've gone from never working a day in my life to falling over dead from 6+ hours of nothing but work. I need that break to come back again so I can relive it to have good memories, not these.
I don't know really who is going to it, mainly because I hardly talk to anyone besides Teebo, Teresa, Ogre, or Brian anymore. Everyone else just somewhat stopped talking to me or vice versa. Maybe I'm doing this intentionally, but I really just have the need to be around everyone...Not push them away. Have I changed? What is it that's going on with me that's making me be so alone? It hurts more than it seems.
My body is worn from today's manual labor fest. My hands are all sore from painting all day. I've gone from never working a day in my life to falling over dead from 6+ hours of nothing but work. I need that break to come back again so I can relive it to have good memories, not these.