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[radiant_days]

i'm not sure i know how to be happy. it's so natural for me to be unhappy. i wish i knew why. i wish i could change.
i wish i knew what i wanted. i wish i could just be that girl laughing and cracking jokes that all my friends know.
i wish i was that way when the door is closed and no ones watching. but i'm not. and i don't know how to fix it.