Hm, parties... I'm gradually becoming a junglist, I think.

[radianreverie]

Last weekend, I went to a seriously tight drumnbass party. KJ Sawka, Zacharia vs. Rob Noble, etc spinning... It was at the Loft, which is, quite literally, someone's loft, in the industrial part of Seattle - I remember being confused by the dj setup at the front of the room, and the refrigerator, counter and variety of cooking utensils at the back

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[radianreverie]

Yeah, I do understand where you're coming from. That's why I still do go to different kinds of parties. I'm just saying that after last fall, when I got caught up in it, it's lost a lot of its appeal, the more drugged-up side of raving, because I got close to fucking myself up and in the process realized how many people have gone far and beyond that imaginary line that I was fearing. It was a bad time, and I got surrounded by really bad people, and it was kind of a slap in the face once I sort of regained consciousness of where it was all going. Drumnbass parties are different. They're just different, and mostly, the reason I like dnb parties is the fact that I can't really stand happy hardcore as music in general whereas dnb strikes something in me more than any trance or house could. It's personal preference, and the longer I stay away from bomb, the more it scares me, because I'd never tried anything up until this past August, and I don't know if I can feel it and what it might have done to me yet but I don't want to be able to. I haven't had a good high for a while, like a worth-it high. Because every comedown has been worse than the roll was good, and a couple highs I had maybe two or three months ago were simply terrible. The shit was probably cut with plenty of meth. Bomb has just (no pun intended) left a bad taste in my mouth. And bad people who do too much bomb have left a bad taste in my mouth. Like I said, I've met many bad people who represent the worst part of the kandie kid realm. But - don't get me wrong either - I'm not condoning every single kandie kid, or every person who does bomb or drugs on occasion. I have candy, I wear a couple bracelets occasionally, I enjoy it. But it's not really about that, exactly, not about judgements on people's tastes but that the party scene is starting to get to me but I don't know what else to do, because what else do we have? I don't know any different than this scene, and am getting to know the various components. And just the feeling I get from all the drugs, the overusage of drugs, the abuse of drugs, the liars and thieves I've known, and who they pretend to be at a rave... that's what makes me sick. And unfortunately, I guess they, in my mind, represent far too much of the party population, *even though* there are a lot of good people who go for better reasons than just getting really high and support the party scene too. I don't know. You see what I'm saying? This is mostly subjective, I just had a lot of bad experiences, and it's begun to jade me. I'll still go to a theme party at the Catwalk as readily as I went to the dnb party at the Loft, so long as I'm in the mood for it. I dunno. It's just all kind of complicated...