Hm, parties... I'm gradually becoming a junglist, I think.

[radianreverie]

Last weekend, I went to a seriously tight drumnbass party. KJ Sawka, Zacharia vs. Rob Noble, etc spinning... It was at the Loft, which is, quite literally, someone's loft, in the industrial part of Seattle - I remember being confused by the dj setup at the front of the room, and the refrigerator, counter and variety of cooking utensils at the back

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[damdcow]

" But, there are those out there, many of them, who still believe in it, who keep it alive, pass it down. "

most of the time, as i have noticed (even as jaded as i have become) the etards are the ones who make the party happen. without the etards, you would have your pretty little jungle parties, where nothing ever changes, the music is all the same, and no one likes any variation.
yes they may be shallow, un-real, "children of the drug"... and you may get sick of them very quickly, but thats why we chill with these kids at parties, and not outside in the real world.

their professinal "pump-up" attitude can make the differance between a good party, and the event of the year.

i mean, i'm not condoning the use of ectasy or ghb, by all means, i think that what happened to tet (the raver that died) is extremly sad and avoidable. but i am not one to throw out the old, just cause it has a little dirt under its nails.

raves were started because of e. raves would most likely die without e.

i'm not saying dont go to elitist junglist parties, but please do acknowledge its roots, and accept all different types of parties. it may be dirty, but its all some of us have got left.

[radianreverie]

Yeah, I do understand where you're coming from. That's why I still do go to different kinds of parties. I'm just saying that after last fall, when I got caught up in it, it's lost a lot of its appeal, the more drugged-up side of raving, because I got close to fucking myself up and in the process realized how many people have gone far and beyond that imaginary line that I was fearing. It was a bad time, and I got surrounded by really bad people, and it was kind of a slap in the face once I sort of regained consciousness of where it was all going. Drumnbass parties are different. They're just different, and mostly, the reason I like dnb parties is the fact that I can't really stand happy hardcore as music in general whereas dnb strikes something in me more than any trance or house could. It's personal preference, and the longer I stay away from bomb, the more it scares me, because I'd never tried anything up until this past August, and I don't know if I can feel it and what it might have done to me yet but I don't want to be able to. I haven't had a good high for a while, like a worth-it high. Because every comedown has been worse than the roll was good, and a couple highs I had maybe two or three months ago were simply terrible. The shit was probably cut with plenty of meth. Bomb has just (no pun intended) left a bad taste in my mouth. And bad people who do too much bomb have left a bad taste in my mouth. Like I said, I've met many bad people who represent the worst part of the kandie kid realm. But - don't get me wrong either - I'm not condoning every single kandie kid, or every person who does bomb or drugs on occasion. I have candy, I wear a couple bracelets occasionally, I enjoy it. But it's not really about that, exactly, not about judgements on people's tastes but that the party scene is starting to get to me but I don't know what else to do, because what else do we have? I don't know any different than this scene, and am getting to know the various components. And just the feeling I get from all the drugs, the overusage of drugs, the abuse of drugs, the liars and thieves I've known, and who they pretend to be at a rave... that's what makes me sick. And unfortunately, I guess they, in my mind, represent far too much of the party population, *even though* there are a lot of good people who go for better reasons than just getting really high and support the party scene too. I don't know. You see what I'm saying? This is mostly subjective, I just had a lot of bad experiences, and it's begun to jade me. I'll still go to a theme party at the Catwalk as readily as I went to the dnb party at the Loft, so long as I'm in the mood for it. I dunno. It's just all kind of complicated...