I am crazy.

[radianreverie]

Well. I've looked at Livejournal probably once in the past two months. It just no longer appeals to me, ever since I figured out that all it does is make me feel alone. Not to mention school + work + life = no time for internet, or at least not willingly

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Re: This really isn't about you, you know.

[ladyathena]

Tessa, I was in no way trying to offended you or did I take your post neccisarly personaly, what I said had needed to be said for along time and I felt that apperently now was the time to do it. I feel that you missunderstood the things I was trying to say. For instance I was not trying to discredit your skills in Croation or was trying to say that you shouldn't try to use that for a future career. I was just trying to point out that its hard for SOME of us, not everyone, to be close with you when Croatia obviously still rules over you life.

It was really frusterating for me to read what you wrote about the situation of me getting with David and the whole Chelsea issues. As soon as I read it I thought about the meanest possable things I could say to you to hurt you, but I didn't write those things. I left those out because they had nothing to do with this conversation at all. What happened between the 3 of us (chel, myself and david) happened between us and no one eles. Personaly, I felt like you were just saying that to hurt me and piss me off. And initially it really worked.

Now, however, I just want to clarify what was unclear before. I don't want to hurt you, Tessa. That was NEVER EVER my intent, even while writing it I kept going back and making sure that what I was writing was easy to understand and that it couldn't be intrapted the wrong way. But apperently I didn't really do a good enough job. I only ment to point out that I feel like you don't need those of us who were here before you left. You have those that understand your Croatian side, and you have the kids from Shoreline. Its like you don't need the rest of us anymore.

Because we haven't had the wonderful expierence you have had of traveling out of the country or even getting ot move up to college we can't relate to alot of the things. And its hard for us, well I'll start saying me, to really understand and...relate to you. I want to, I really do. But I can't. I can't understand how it is to be able to speak another language and get to use that as your job, just like you can't understand many of my expiernces I've had.

All in all, it just feels like you don't want "us" or me around. I apologize for using lj for all this, I should have just called you but this seemed like a more appropriate way to do it. Next time, I'll make sure to call or talk to you to your face so that I can get my point across a little better so you don't get hurt in the process of things.

-jac