For EVER we are ALL HOKIES!!!!!
So a few days after the shootings, I still couldn't believe it and the thought was heavy on my heart. I couldn't even look anywhere without something reminding me of it . I had not cried about it but I felt the anquish. I didn't understand why I felt the way I did. Then on Wednesday I had to go to clinical. My clinical was at the hospital where two of the worse injured students were. On the way to clinical I was flipping out, thinking I might have one of the victims, I didn't but sitting through clinical for 12 hours I realized why I was feeling the way I was. So I called my mom and asked her if she thought Kamran knew I loved him and of course she said of course. Well I got the off the phone and thought about calling Kamran but decided against it. Well still that evening I felt like crap b/c of it. So Thursday evening I called Kamran and started off by saying I know this may sound sappy but I just wanted to tell you that I love you and he said "Oh I see how it is you only Love me when you think I am going to die" and I laughed saying Yup, but also when I want something, by the way have you fixed my car yet" and we started laughing whcih was good. Friday my heart felt way better.
In other news I just can't believe the media now-a-days I am listening to MTV and a boy named Brice blogged on this site and somehow they got into his journal. Now what kind of privacy is that? Man. And he talked about the media running all over campus trying to get an interveiw from a student. Shit people give them a break.
I CAN'T even IMAGINE how the students at Tech feel. I can only know how I feel and that is shitty (for lose of a better word). It was Tuesday or Wednesday night when a girl came coming into Whitney's room and said did hear what happen? A girl over in Tyler took a whole bottle of Tylenol PM and was now getting rushed to the Hospital. The reason was one of her good friends were killed. Students at Radford were effected so much by this tragedy many had family and friends who went there. We are only 15 minutes at the most away. Many of the students at Radford recieved degrees from VT or are transfering to VT. We don't understand how it could happen in a small town. What really got to me the day of the shooting was the national and international coverage i tried to turn the channel to watch something other then victims getting carried out [picture/video taken of them in their lowest moments], so getting back I changed the channel to E thinking oh news about celebrities I am safe. Nope with in the first few seconds the anchor said "Our hearts go out to the victims in Va and we mean no disrepect by worry about celebrity life...." And of course I couldn't get online either, I couldn't go outside, I couldn't listen to music because every song I would relate back to the shooting. I was trying to run away but couldn't, that didn't help my fight or flight reaction.
Still on Sat. it all seems like a haze and that it really didn't happen, but in my heart I know that is wishful thinking. Wishful thinking that all those who lost their life will be back on Monday to get their degrees, however we can not be naive. We have to move on and take this tragedy in our hearts and mind and live our lifes to the fullest, loving anything and everyone.
We are not only the 9-11, Iraq war generation but now the VT tragedy. What has our world come to, it amazes me. I was talking to a guy the other day who also complains..Well his cousins goes to VT and came home and he thought that was wrong and immature. He said his cousin needs to grow up and act like an adult. He said she was spoiled and needs to realize what the real world is. I asked him how old his cousin was and he said 18 that sent me over the edge basically I said "First off 18 can hardly be seen as an adult, secondily she was there at VT when it happened, she could and MOST likely know people who got injured and killed. If it helps her to stay home for the summer and maybe even transfer so be it. And I finished it off by saying it is a flippin sad thing when people consider a massacre of 32 students and professor as the "REAL WORLD" what that shit is not the real world and should never be consider the real world." Of course he went on to say something and got off real quick.
I want to finish by saying God bless VT and we as neighbors are here for you. We [Radford] will always be behind you!!!!
In other news I just can't believe the media now-a-days I am listening to MTV and a boy named Brice blogged on this site and somehow they got into his journal. Now what kind of privacy is that? Man. And he talked about the media running all over campus trying to get an interveiw from a student. Shit people give them a break.
I CAN'T even IMAGINE how the students at Tech feel. I can only know how I feel and that is shitty (for lose of a better word). It was Tuesday or Wednesday night when a girl came coming into Whitney's room and said did hear what happen? A girl over in Tyler took a whole bottle of Tylenol PM and was now getting rushed to the Hospital. The reason was one of her good friends were killed. Students at Radford were effected so much by this tragedy many had family and friends who went there. We are only 15 minutes at the most away. Many of the students at Radford recieved degrees from VT or are transfering to VT. We don't understand how it could happen in a small town. What really got to me the day of the shooting was the national and international coverage i tried to turn the channel to watch something other then victims getting carried out [picture/video taken of them in their lowest moments], so getting back I changed the channel to E thinking oh news about celebrities I am safe. Nope with in the first few seconds the anchor said "Our hearts go out to the victims in Va and we mean no disrepect by worry about celebrity life...." And of course I couldn't get online either, I couldn't go outside, I couldn't listen to music because every song I would relate back to the shooting. I was trying to run away but couldn't, that didn't help my fight or flight reaction.
Still on Sat. it all seems like a haze and that it really didn't happen, but in my heart I know that is wishful thinking. Wishful thinking that all those who lost their life will be back on Monday to get their degrees, however we can not be naive. We have to move on and take this tragedy in our hearts and mind and live our lifes to the fullest, loving anything and everyone.
We are not only the 9-11, Iraq war generation but now the VT tragedy. What has our world come to, it amazes me. I was talking to a guy the other day who also complains..Well his cousins goes to VT and came home and he thought that was wrong and immature. He said his cousin needs to grow up and act like an adult. He said she was spoiled and needs to realize what the real world is. I asked him how old his cousin was and he said 18 that sent me over the edge basically I said "First off 18 can hardly be seen as an adult, secondily she was there at VT when it happened, she could and MOST likely know people who got injured and killed. If it helps her to stay home for the summer and maybe even transfer so be it. And I finished it off by saying it is a flippin sad thing when people consider a massacre of 32 students and professor as the "REAL WORLD" what that shit is not the real world and should never be consider the real world." Of course he went on to say something and got off real quick.
I want to finish by saying God bless VT and we as neighbors are here for you. We [Radford] will always be behind you!!!!