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i'm in another stage where i'm questioning everything about my life.
am i fat and ugly and unlovable? should i be an actor if i am those things? or should i really get into costume design even though i can't sew or draw? should i do something else entirely where how i look matters a lot less? what is it about me that attracts these horribly negative/weird/ghetto/just not good for me guys? i have been hit on at least 4 times in as many days by guys who fit that description.
why can't i stop thinking about james bryce? is he gonna be my "one that got away"? cause that would suck...
what the hell do i want out of life? i can see myself being happy just living alone and doing theatre and really getting into it and not being beholden to anyone or any thing. buuuuuuuuut then i can see myself being happy with a husband and kids and maybe some job at a box office or still doing something in the theatre that isn't as time/all consuming like acting, you know?
i dunno...just thinking a lot. thomas always said i think too much...
am i fat and ugly and unlovable? should i be an actor if i am those things? or should i really get into costume design even though i can't sew or draw? should i do something else entirely where how i look matters a lot less? what is it about me that attracts these horribly negative/weird/ghetto/just not good for me guys? i have been hit on at least 4 times in as many days by guys who fit that description.
why can't i stop thinking about james bryce? is he gonna be my "one that got away"? cause that would suck...
what the hell do i want out of life? i can see myself being happy just living alone and doing theatre and really getting into it and not being beholden to anyone or any thing. buuuuuuuuut then i can see myself being happy with a husband and kids and maybe some job at a box office or still doing something in the theatre that isn't as time/all consuming like acting, you know?
i dunno...just thinking a lot. thomas always said i think too much...