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i woke up this morning with rain falling on my head. our window is leaking.
i am really tired, ive been working a lot, 30 hours at aveda and 30 at the new school for last week, and pretty much the same for this, and the next two. then hopefully madoka, my boss at aveda will give me mondays off forever. all i need is one day.
last night i went with bee and bobby over to chloe's house in greenpoint and carved pumpkins and listened to podcasts and sat out on the fire escape. i want an apartment like hers, something old but with potential. and roof access. but without the grouchy neighbors.
everyday i feel differently about living here. some days i wonder why i moved and i miss the comforts and friends i used to have. like having a car to drive to work in when its raining. or having an apartment thats all mine. or being able to cook more. and sometimes im really lonely.
some days i love it and i want to be with the people around me and in the hectic busy subways and going to sit on a bench outside of the public library to eat lunch and meeting new people everyday. and i dont mind sharing this little space with bee because we get along so well. there's a lot of reasons why i both hate and love this city. and its only been two months, i know, it takes a while to adjust to new places. maybe i had higher expectations for myself and i'm letting myself down, i dont know.
i am really tired, ive been working a lot, 30 hours at aveda and 30 at the new school for last week, and pretty much the same for this, and the next two. then hopefully madoka, my boss at aveda will give me mondays off forever. all i need is one day.
last night i went with bee and bobby over to chloe's house in greenpoint and carved pumpkins and listened to podcasts and sat out on the fire escape. i want an apartment like hers, something old but with potential. and roof access. but without the grouchy neighbors.
everyday i feel differently about living here. some days i wonder why i moved and i miss the comforts and friends i used to have. like having a car to drive to work in when its raining. or having an apartment thats all mine. or being able to cook more. and sometimes im really lonely.
some days i love it and i want to be with the people around me and in the hectic busy subways and going to sit on a bench outside of the public library to eat lunch and meeting new people everyday. and i dont mind sharing this little space with bee because we get along so well. there's a lot of reasons why i both hate and love this city. and its only been two months, i know, it takes a while to adjust to new places. maybe i had higher expectations for myself and i'm letting myself down, i dont know.