Memories of Triad Trials and Troubles
There are times, especially when things happen which bring them up, where I can't avoid looking back and hurting.
SM I can usually overlook, there's just too much pain there. Too much intentional hurt from him. WW is harder. She never hurt me with that being the intent. She was too easily hurt, as well.
Still there were the really good times. Times that would be hard to trade for much of anything. I miss the good times, and I miss them both. However, when all is said and done, I've not been this painfree for eight months. The last month, the one without them has been a return to an agony-free existence.
Triads are difficult. Relationships are difficult. Add an emotional injury, a malignancy, to the mix and it goes toxic quickly. I've never been in a relationship where I've had a lover feel they needed to punish me before. One with such a need to hurt those close to him. To take out his frustrations on those he loved.
SM had a hard life, so I have a hard time faulting him. God but he was charming, funny, and could be loving when he wanted.
WW is one of the most beautiful women I've known. She could and tended to be a very loving and kind person. She could have a temper, but it was honest and the furor rarely lasted long. I could stay in her arms forever. And she could be hurt. In some ways she was very fragile. And in some, one of the strongest people I knew.
I miss them.
SM I can usually overlook, there's just too much pain there. Too much intentional hurt from him. WW is harder. She never hurt me with that being the intent. She was too easily hurt, as well.
Still there were the really good times. Times that would be hard to trade for much of anything. I miss the good times, and I miss them both. However, when all is said and done, I've not been this painfree for eight months. The last month, the one without them has been a return to an agony-free existence.
Triads are difficult. Relationships are difficult. Add an emotional injury, a malignancy, to the mix and it goes toxic quickly. I've never been in a relationship where I've had a lover feel they needed to punish me before. One with such a need to hurt those close to him. To take out his frustrations on those he loved.
SM had a hard life, so I have a hard time faulting him. God but he was charming, funny, and could be loving when he wanted.
WW is one of the most beautiful women I've known. She could and tended to be a very loving and kind person. She could have a temper, but it was honest and the furor rarely lasted long. I could stay in her arms forever. And she could be hurt. In some ways she was very fragile. And in some, one of the strongest people I knew.
I miss them.