Gilbert O'Sullivan
It is truly perplexing how one can be surrounded by people, especially a multitude of people they know, yet feel completely and utterly alone-- just lost in the world.
Not only is it a perplexing feeling, but an uncomfortable and depressing one as well.
I've been here four years, and what do I have to show for it? A decent friendship here or there, but that's it. I feel like I don't have a best friend here. Nobody to always hang out with, to spend time with. I constantly feel unwelcome and alone. Enough of it.
That's part of the reason I feel like just finding a job somewhere random and starting there. It's not like I have much here to hold on to.
Half the time, I think I know why people don't want me around. I'm annoying. I talk too much. I get upset easily. Life has given me too many burdens, and people don't understand, so I'm the freak that gets emotional at the smallest of phrases.
Everyone else is moving on with their lives. I feel like I'm stuck in the past and trying to make things bigger than they actually are. Taking the smallest of human interaction and blowing it out of proportion to make myself happy.
I'm sick of being alone. I just want somebody to talk to when I need it. Like now. That doesn't exist for me though. I'm not sure it ever has, and it probably never will.
--Becca
Not only is it a perplexing feeling, but an uncomfortable and depressing one as well.
I've been here four years, and what do I have to show for it? A decent friendship here or there, but that's it. I feel like I don't have a best friend here. Nobody to always hang out with, to spend time with. I constantly feel unwelcome and alone. Enough of it.
That's part of the reason I feel like just finding a job somewhere random and starting there. It's not like I have much here to hold on to.
Half the time, I think I know why people don't want me around. I'm annoying. I talk too much. I get upset easily. Life has given me too many burdens, and people don't understand, so I'm the freak that gets emotional at the smallest of phrases.
Everyone else is moving on with their lives. I feel like I'm stuck in the past and trying to make things bigger than they actually are. Taking the smallest of human interaction and blowing it out of proportion to make myself happy.
I'm sick of being alone. I just want somebody to talk to when I need it. Like now. That doesn't exist for me though. I'm not sure it ever has, and it probably never will.
--Becca