A turn for the better.
Today, things are starting to look up.
As I waited on the seemingly endless line to get into court my life seemed like things couldn't get worse. But who knew after about an hour, things would seem that much better. In a much needed twist of fate, the judge who handled my case dismissed all charges against me and pretty much said "be more careful next time." Even though they are minor traffic violations, knowing I no longer owe the court anything or have to be in court is awesome! Pure relief! Now I also know that Wednesday, I'm taking care of my school situation, and that makes me feel a TON better.
Speaking of school, I've also decided that I want to pursue a career in English Education. I want to teach JR High English. This is a big step for me because I never know what I wanna do, and now I have more capability to focus.
Also I have made some pretty big strides on the love front. This girl, that I have been pining over for months now, is awesome. There is no question about that. We hung out today, for a while, and I'm so so glad we did. I enjoyed my time with her so much, because I value her friendship. But I think all of this time to reflect on her as an individual and us as a couple, or possible couple, has made me scrutinize her a little much, and after everything is said and done I don't think I have the same feeling for her that I once did. Maybe it is the fact that I know we can't be together; or maybe it is some of the quirks of hers I have picked up along the way; Maybe its the fact that I'm tired of using her as a crutch and hurting so bad... I'm not 100% sure what it is at the moment, But I don't think I like her more than just a friend anymore. I totally value what we have as friends, in the best way. I love that chick.
Speaking of which, I got the present I bought her in the mail today. It's came out awesome! It was totally worth the doe!! I'm so excited, I want her to see it, I just don't want her to hate it lol. But I really do think she'll like it. I really hope so.
So as of right now, The only thing really bugging me is the fact that I have no active car, but I can only hope that that will be resolved soon... I hope! (BMW 5 series anyone?)
Things really are starting to look up. With this new-found confidence I have I hope to go far, or at least until the next thing gets me down. But you know what? Its not so bad really, as long as I know I have something to look forward to. Even if it is the thought of this moment, where the dark clouds parted and I saw some brightness. I truly believe that after every storm the sun shines brightest, and for me, that time is now. Its time to shine-
-rad
As I waited on the seemingly endless line to get into court my life seemed like things couldn't get worse. But who knew after about an hour, things would seem that much better. In a much needed twist of fate, the judge who handled my case dismissed all charges against me and pretty much said "be more careful next time." Even though they are minor traffic violations, knowing I no longer owe the court anything or have to be in court is awesome! Pure relief! Now I also know that Wednesday, I'm taking care of my school situation, and that makes me feel a TON better.
Speaking of school, I've also decided that I want to pursue a career in English Education. I want to teach JR High English. This is a big step for me because I never know what I wanna do, and now I have more capability to focus.
Also I have made some pretty big strides on the love front. This girl, that I have been pining over for months now, is awesome. There is no question about that. We hung out today, for a while, and I'm so so glad we did. I enjoyed my time with her so much, because I value her friendship. But I think all of this time to reflect on her as an individual and us as a couple, or possible couple, has made me scrutinize her a little much, and after everything is said and done I don't think I have the same feeling for her that I once did. Maybe it is the fact that I know we can't be together; or maybe it is some of the quirks of hers I have picked up along the way; Maybe its the fact that I'm tired of using her as a crutch and hurting so bad... I'm not 100% sure what it is at the moment, But I don't think I like her more than just a friend anymore. I totally value what we have as friends, in the best way. I love that chick.
Speaking of which, I got the present I bought her in the mail today. It's came out awesome! It was totally worth the doe!! I'm so excited, I want her to see it, I just don't want her to hate it lol. But I really do think she'll like it. I really hope so.
So as of right now, The only thing really bugging me is the fact that I have no active car, but I can only hope that that will be resolved soon... I hope! (BMW 5 series anyone?)
Things really are starting to look up. With this new-found confidence I have I hope to go far, or at least until the next thing gets me down. But you know what? Its not so bad really, as long as I know I have something to look forward to. Even if it is the thought of this moment, where the dark clouds parted and I saw some brightness. I truly believe that after every storm the sun shines brightest, and for me, that time is now. Its time to shine-
-rad