Stable vs Unstable
So Yesterday was the start of a new semester. Today was the continuation of the semester and so on for the next 14 weeks or so.
I know school is the key for me (and many other people) so I'm telling myself now that I MUST succeed. I may have messed up in the past but this is a new-found motivation that is now inside of me, and with those thoughts in my mind the classes just seem easier. I know I will do well because I'm going to try my very hardest to make sure everything turns out alright.
So how can I apply this thought to the rest of my life? Well I've already done it with my health. I lost 35 lbs. in less than 3 months. So I guess more specifically then, how can I apply this to my love life? Is there any way to really feel THAT confident at success? Or are all relationships just a greater progress we can't possibly have control over? I'm not entirely sure that it may be possible to ever feel that way about meeting a girl, or sustaining a relationship, because they are so unstable. School on the other hand is stable. You go to class, do work, pass tests and you will pass the class. Health is stable. You eat right, you exercise and then you will reap the rewards you seek whether it be more energy or to weigh less, you will get there. But I'm learning that Love doesn't work that way. Not in the least, and not for me.
I've tried so hard my whole life to be the best man... no, the best human I can possibly be and I've always held women with respect and praise, yet to this day I have yet to have a single girlfriend I can be proud of, or a girl that hasn't tore me apart. What am I doing wrong? What steps do I need to take? I'm not sure but all I know is that I AM a great catch, and if any girl could be so lucky as to call me their boyfriend that would not be a decision regrettable. But for me, knowing that isn't enough. I like to be loved. I like the companionship between a man and a woman. It's something so special that men often take for granted. They have always had it that way, so why should they care if they have Sue or Sally? It's no big deal to them because girls come and go. But not to me, and I think that is a special quality.
So i guess the only real outlook on love is that it is always going to be a cloudy day, until you meet that one girl who will clear your skies and shine on you. You just never know when that guest of wind will come to bring you together, and until then you must sit with your coat and hot chocolate and bare the storm, because when that sunshine does come your way, you won't ever want to go back to being in the cold.
I just hope my patients doesn't run out...
I know school is the key for me (and many other people) so I'm telling myself now that I MUST succeed. I may have messed up in the past but this is a new-found motivation that is now inside of me, and with those thoughts in my mind the classes just seem easier. I know I will do well because I'm going to try my very hardest to make sure everything turns out alright.
So how can I apply this thought to the rest of my life? Well I've already done it with my health. I lost 35 lbs. in less than 3 months. So I guess more specifically then, how can I apply this to my love life? Is there any way to really feel THAT confident at success? Or are all relationships just a greater progress we can't possibly have control over? I'm not entirely sure that it may be possible to ever feel that way about meeting a girl, or sustaining a relationship, because they are so unstable. School on the other hand is stable. You go to class, do work, pass tests and you will pass the class. Health is stable. You eat right, you exercise and then you will reap the rewards you seek whether it be more energy or to weigh less, you will get there. But I'm learning that Love doesn't work that way. Not in the least, and not for me.
I've tried so hard my whole life to be the best man... no, the best human I can possibly be and I've always held women with respect and praise, yet to this day I have yet to have a single girlfriend I can be proud of, or a girl that hasn't tore me apart. What am I doing wrong? What steps do I need to take? I'm not sure but all I know is that I AM a great catch, and if any girl could be so lucky as to call me their boyfriend that would not be a decision regrettable. But for me, knowing that isn't enough. I like to be loved. I like the companionship between a man and a woman. It's something so special that men often take for granted. They have always had it that way, so why should they care if they have Sue or Sally? It's no big deal to them because girls come and go. But not to me, and I think that is a special quality.
So i guess the only real outlook on love is that it is always going to be a cloudy day, until you meet that one girl who will clear your skies and shine on you. You just never know when that guest of wind will come to bring you together, and until then you must sit with your coat and hot chocolate and bare the storm, because when that sunshine does come your way, you won't ever want to go back to being in the cold.
I just hope my patients doesn't run out...