I Am Sorry chapter 1
Title : I Am Sorry
Chapter : 1/??
Author : racunluvshinya
Pairing : Die/Toshiya, and maybe other will come.....
Rating : T-->M
Genre : Drama,Romance,Angst
Warning : manXman relationship,sworn,cursed
Summary : When you already lost the person whom you loved most, anything will not worth anymore.....Is there any possibilities to reach happiness?
Disclaimer: I don't own Dir en Grey charachter,,just the story
-chapter 1-
I wish that I could see tomorrow, two days later, and more. Then I realized that fate is completely different with destiny. We can change our fate, but no one can change destiny. Am I right? Or maybe that’s just, regret…..
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“So, how is your day today Die-kun?” asked Toshiya.
“Hmm,,” I shrugged my shoulders then lit my cigarette.
“H-m-m is not the answer, I think.” Toshiya asked again with a bit protest.
“Then what kind of answer do you expect from me?” Die turned to Toshiya with annoyed expression and hit one locker in front of them.
“K-K-Kind of sentence, perhaps?” said Toshiya with weird smile in trembled and afraid of Die’s gaze.
“So-so! Are you satisfied now?!” Die replied in high tone with deadly glared.
“J-J-Just that, heeh, y-y-yes..yes….” said Toshiya still in trembled and more scared.
“Then, don’t try to ask anything!” he took his stuff and just walked away.
“Whoaaa I thought that just me, Kao-sama, who can give such anger gaze. How come Die-san can also do that?” asked Kaoru who came from studio with a can of beer in his grip suddenly.
“I dunno. For few months Die-kun acted strange. I thought we are best mates, but he changed so much. What had happened to him actually?” asked Toshiya to Kaoru.
“Dunno too. Perhaps effect of beer or sake?” Said Kaoru with shrugged on his shoulders, smiled, then went to restroom.
“Hmfff, I really want to know what had happened to him…..” murmured Toshiya in his heart and sat on the couch.
Die began to walk into his apartment as soon as he arrived into his apartment, out from his car, and locked it.
“I wonder why everyone was so annoying asking this and that to me. Talking too much but not make sense, sounds so stupid! I have no good mood at all but I have to answer their fuckin’ moron questions. What the heck is that? Can’t they just shut their mouth and leave me alone? I’m so sick with them right now!” protested Die in his heart and went into lift to go into his room.
In the middle of the lift running, he stared into the city scene with blank stared. He smiled lightly and blew his fag. He remembered about beautiful evening with beautiful person whom he knew well, so well. And he would always remember it although that beautiful evening won’t be repeated anymore.
“I’m missing you badly. I wish you were here with me…..” he sighed as he blew the last fag.
When the lift arrived on the 13th floor, Die walked out of the lift and went into his room. He stopped at room number 1331 and opened the door.
“You always say that 13 is not unlucky number and I believed that. But the fact, you’re gone. Left me with that trashy things.” muttered him and opened his apartment’s door.
He put his stuff in their place then took off his navy t-shirt and his socks then went to the restroom. He washed his face with fresh water and saw his own face in the mirror. Suddenly he hit the mirror with his right hand, broke it into pieces. By the time blood flowed from his back hand, his cell phone rang. He cried silently and smiled lightly remembered his beloved beautiful person.
“Did you feel like this? You must be felt very painful, huh? I knew that now. I’m so sorry…..” he hissed on his cry. His cell phone rang again and again, broke his words. It made him mad and then he walked to see who was calling him.
“Damn fuckin moron! They always disturb me with their unimportant call! Eat your shit now!” he cursed in his bad anger.
Die caught his cell phone and began to shout.
“If you still calling me I’ll fuck your fuckin’ mouth, ass…”he started to sworn but it was stopped by a voice.
“Neeee calms down Die-kun!!! I have been calling you thousand times but no answer!! I have important thing to say.” Said Toshiya captiously and a bit exaggerated.
“Ok then, what’s that now? Make sure you speak fast. I’m getting bored with those shits!” replied Die madly.
“All right, tomorrow our band will have early concert. Mr. Inoue adds one earlier concert in Hokkaido. Don’t forget to arrive in the office around 7.00 a.m.” said Toshiya in fast tempo afraid of Die’s anger.
“Just that? Thanks then….” Replied Die in annoyed voice and began to hang off the cell phone.
“Wait Die-kun, are you ok? Because your voice seems...…” Added Toshiya which enrages Die’s mad.
“That’s not your business, moron!” said Die in one fast rude tone and then hung off his cell phone.
“But Die-kun…hey….” Toshiya’s voice was off as the cell phone is being hung off.
“Shit! That bitch is too much talking!” Die began to throw his cell phone into the couch.
Die turned to the big dark green piano in his living room and then sat in front of it. He opened it and began to press the keys from one tone to another. He made chaotic tones which are also described his chaotic heart. He knocked those tones hardly and cried for second times.
“I want to make another song for you, Nika. But why it seems very difficult to me to make it. It was very easy when you were here, with me. But now, I have no chords to play for you, such an idiot huh? I miss you…..” Die began to cry and smiled painfully in his bloody palms.
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to be contnued.........
Notes : English is not my mother tongue,,,sorry for the grammatical mistakes....review, comment, and critics are very very accepted......
just enjoy then..... :)
Chapter : 1/??
Author : racunluvshinya
Pairing : Die/Toshiya, and maybe other will come.....
Rating : T-->M
Genre : Drama,Romance,Angst
Warning : manXman relationship,sworn,cursed
Summary : When you already lost the person whom you loved most, anything will not worth anymore.....Is there any possibilities to reach happiness?
Disclaimer: I don't own Dir en Grey charachter,,just the story
-chapter 1-
I wish that I could see tomorrow, two days later, and more. Then I realized that fate is completely different with destiny. We can change our fate, but no one can change destiny. Am I right? Or maybe that’s just, regret…..
********************************
“So, how is your day today Die-kun?” asked Toshiya.
“Hmm,,” I shrugged my shoulders then lit my cigarette.
“H-m-m is not the answer, I think.” Toshiya asked again with a bit protest.
“Then what kind of answer do you expect from me?” Die turned to Toshiya with annoyed expression and hit one locker in front of them.
“K-K-Kind of sentence, perhaps?” said Toshiya with weird smile in trembled and afraid of Die’s gaze.
“So-so! Are you satisfied now?!” Die replied in high tone with deadly glared.
“J-J-Just that, heeh, y-y-yes..yes….” said Toshiya still in trembled and more scared.
“Then, don’t try to ask anything!” he took his stuff and just walked away.
“Whoaaa I thought that just me, Kao-sama, who can give such anger gaze. How come Die-san can also do that?” asked Kaoru who came from studio with a can of beer in his grip suddenly.
“I dunno. For few months Die-kun acted strange. I thought we are best mates, but he changed so much. What had happened to him actually?” asked Toshiya to Kaoru.
“Dunno too. Perhaps effect of beer or sake?” Said Kaoru with shrugged on his shoulders, smiled, then went to restroom.
“Hmfff, I really want to know what had happened to him…..” murmured Toshiya in his heart and sat on the couch.
Die began to walk into his apartment as soon as he arrived into his apartment, out from his car, and locked it.
“I wonder why everyone was so annoying asking this and that to me. Talking too much but not make sense, sounds so stupid! I have no good mood at all but I have to answer their fuckin’ moron questions. What the heck is that? Can’t they just shut their mouth and leave me alone? I’m so sick with them right now!” protested Die in his heart and went into lift to go into his room.
In the middle of the lift running, he stared into the city scene with blank stared. He smiled lightly and blew his fag. He remembered about beautiful evening with beautiful person whom he knew well, so well. And he would always remember it although that beautiful evening won’t be repeated anymore.
“I’m missing you badly. I wish you were here with me…..” he sighed as he blew the last fag.
When the lift arrived on the 13th floor, Die walked out of the lift and went into his room. He stopped at room number 1331 and opened the door.
“You always say that 13 is not unlucky number and I believed that. But the fact, you’re gone. Left me with that trashy things.” muttered him and opened his apartment’s door.
He put his stuff in their place then took off his navy t-shirt and his socks then went to the restroom. He washed his face with fresh water and saw his own face in the mirror. Suddenly he hit the mirror with his right hand, broke it into pieces. By the time blood flowed from his back hand, his cell phone rang. He cried silently and smiled lightly remembered his beloved beautiful person.
“Did you feel like this? You must be felt very painful, huh? I knew that now. I’m so sorry…..” he hissed on his cry. His cell phone rang again and again, broke his words. It made him mad and then he walked to see who was calling him.
“Damn fuckin moron! They always disturb me with their unimportant call! Eat your shit now!” he cursed in his bad anger.
Die caught his cell phone and began to shout.
“If you still calling me I’ll fuck your fuckin’ mouth, ass…”he started to sworn but it was stopped by a voice.
“Neeee calms down Die-kun!!! I have been calling you thousand times but no answer!! I have important thing to say.” Said Toshiya captiously and a bit exaggerated.
“Ok then, what’s that now? Make sure you speak fast. I’m getting bored with those shits!” replied Die madly.
“All right, tomorrow our band will have early concert. Mr. Inoue adds one earlier concert in Hokkaido. Don’t forget to arrive in the office around 7.00 a.m.” said Toshiya in fast tempo afraid of Die’s anger.
“Just that? Thanks then….” Replied Die in annoyed voice and began to hang off the cell phone.
“Wait Die-kun, are you ok? Because your voice seems...…” Added Toshiya which enrages Die’s mad.
“That’s not your business, moron!” said Die in one fast rude tone and then hung off his cell phone.
“But Die-kun…hey….” Toshiya’s voice was off as the cell phone is being hung off.
“Shit! That bitch is too much talking!” Die began to throw his cell phone into the couch.
Die turned to the big dark green piano in his living room and then sat in front of it. He opened it and began to press the keys from one tone to another. He made chaotic tones which are also described his chaotic heart. He knocked those tones hardly and cried for second times.
“I want to make another song for you, Nika. But why it seems very difficult to me to make it. It was very easy when you were here, with me. But now, I have no chords to play for you, such an idiot huh? I miss you…..” Die began to cry and smiled painfully in his bloody palms.
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to be contnued.........
Notes : English is not my mother tongue,,,sorry for the grammatical mistakes....review, comment, and critics are very very accepted......
just enjoy then..... :)