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[rack_on]

i always figured that in your absence
all of my darkest fears would haunt me

i asked myself
what if when youre gone i forgot how to breathe?
what if i could not function?

i learned that all of my fears
were pathetic in comparison to this

something much worst

i'm still breathing
and i am functioning
having to live every day normally
knowing that life goes on
without you

and its so much fucking harder
than i could have ever fucking imagined
my love, my doll, my baby
please come home