why does everything i do confound you?
I started watching Glee today, from the beginning. I've only watched the first two episodes, so far. Still not fond of Rachel, or any of the students for that matter (besides Kurt - but who doesn't love Kurt?! Even my SISTER loves Kurt!) but the teachers are kind of hilarious and darling. Emma is my favorite character. And not just cos I think Jayma Mays is effing adorable. So, anyway, so far it's not making me grumble. Though I know it gets bad. XD Which is a real bummer.
Today, I also posted a picture of Adrien Brody and Roman Polanski on Tumblr and it continues to be reblogged. I know it's silly, but this is the first time something I made (I screencapped it myself!) has been reblogged. Especially that much! :'D I might just have to keep posting my screencaps on there, since they're appreciated... At least the good ones. I'm such an anal screencapper. I work hard to get only the best expressions and moments. In short, if you're still reading, I am a NERD.
What else...? Oh. So my sister is being weird lately. She keeps asking me when I'm moving out and acting all passive-aggressive, rushy toward me, even though 1) I obviously don't want to be here anymore, 2) it's not up to me, it's up to our parents and 3) I'm still on the lease and helping with bills and rent until I'm really gone. There's no rush. My parents have to hire a moving crew and all of that crap to get rid of the old furniture in the room at THEIR house before I can even move back. So the constant badgering me is uncalled for and stupid, cos it's out of my hands at the moment! But, at the same time, she's been acting a lot more friendly and nice. So I am just confused. It's like she's trying to be on good terms with me so she can harass me. Or something. I've really stopped trusting her to have good intentions.
So I've been feeling this in-between feeling today. Almost like I'm confused about how to feel. I've got positive things that have happened
+ Adrien and Roman picture reblogging extravaganza
+ Glee is not so bad (yet)
+ Nice players in my rpg who are excited and willing to play with my favorite character/pairing of mine
+ Generous dad who keeps buying me sodas and beer
+ Awesome friends, adorable pet, kick-ass book I'm reading...
But there are also negatives and it's hard to shake them or ignore them for too long.
+ Still no job in sight
+ Feeling hopeless, helpless and even a little mentally challenged because of it
+ Sister trying to not-so-graciously edge me out after I moved in here two years ago to HELP HER KEEP THIS PLACE. If it wasn't for me promising to move in here, she would've lost this condo. I won't ever forgive her for the way all of this has gone down. Job issues aside, she knew I'd be moving in here for an unforeseeable time (because of her begging me to move here instead of home with our parents) and has acted, almost the entire time, like I'm intruding cos her boyfriend - who was not her boyfriend at first - came to town a few months after I moved in. It's completely fucked up. He lived with us for over a year without paying for anything. It's like she's stopped needing to use me and our parents, so she's begrudged having me here ever since. Baahh. Bitterness. Ongoing bitterness.
All of this will get better once I move out of here, but, like I said, my parents have to get crackin' before I can do anything. I hate always being in the middle. This is why I need to get to Albuquerque. I've saved about $180 now, in my secret NM stash. I may actually end up being the kid who ran away with a duffel bag, a ukulele and better things ahead. Because, at this point, I don't know what I am capable of, but I know I won't find out here.
"Put your pragmatic hat on, not your usual optimistic beanie." - my sister (2 years ago, when telling me why I should move in with her)
I prefer my optimistic beanie, k thanks.
Today, I also posted a picture of Adrien Brody and Roman Polanski on Tumblr and it continues to be reblogged. I know it's silly, but this is the first time something I made (I screencapped it myself!) has been reblogged. Especially that much! :'D I might just have to keep posting my screencaps on there, since they're appreciated... At least the good ones. I'm such an anal screencapper. I work hard to get only the best expressions and moments. In short, if you're still reading, I am a NERD.
What else...? Oh. So my sister is being weird lately. She keeps asking me when I'm moving out and acting all passive-aggressive, rushy toward me, even though 1) I obviously don't want to be here anymore, 2) it's not up to me, it's up to our parents and 3) I'm still on the lease and helping with bills and rent until I'm really gone. There's no rush. My parents have to hire a moving crew and all of that crap to get rid of the old furniture in the room at THEIR house before I can even move back. So the constant badgering me is uncalled for and stupid, cos it's out of my hands at the moment! But, at the same time, she's been acting a lot more friendly and nice. So I am just confused. It's like she's trying to be on good terms with me so she can harass me. Or something. I've really stopped trusting her to have good intentions.
So I've been feeling this in-between feeling today. Almost like I'm confused about how to feel. I've got positive things that have happened
+ Adrien and Roman picture reblogging extravaganza
+ Glee is not so bad (yet)
+ Nice players in my rpg who are excited and willing to play with my favorite character/pairing of mine
+ Generous dad who keeps buying me sodas and beer
+ Awesome friends, adorable pet, kick-ass book I'm reading...
But there are also negatives and it's hard to shake them or ignore them for too long.
+ Still no job in sight
+ Feeling hopeless, helpless and even a little mentally challenged because of it
+ Sister trying to not-so-graciously edge me out after I moved in here two years ago to HELP HER KEEP THIS PLACE. If it wasn't for me promising to move in here, she would've lost this condo. I won't ever forgive her for the way all of this has gone down. Job issues aside, she knew I'd be moving in here for an unforeseeable time (because of her begging me to move here instead of home with our parents) and has acted, almost the entire time, like I'm intruding cos her boyfriend - who was not her boyfriend at first - came to town a few months after I moved in. It's completely fucked up. He lived with us for over a year without paying for anything. It's like she's stopped needing to use me and our parents, so she's begrudged having me here ever since. Baahh. Bitterness. Ongoing bitterness.
All of this will get better once I move out of here, but, like I said, my parents have to get crackin' before I can do anything. I hate always being in the middle. This is why I need to get to Albuquerque. I've saved about $180 now, in my secret NM stash. I may actually end up being the kid who ran away with a duffel bag, a ukulele and better things ahead. Because, at this point, I don't know what I am capable of, but I know I won't find out here.
"Put your pragmatic hat on, not your usual optimistic beanie." - my sister (2 years ago, when telling me why I should move in with her)
I prefer my optimistic beanie, k thanks.