Just like James I'll be drinking Irish tonight

[racingheartbeat]

I remember how safe I felt that night with you. When we look our best, we're so cute together, and my emotions feel right. But I do wonder if it's desperation, or do we really like eachother? Maybe a little bit of both. But, I hope not. I'm almost begining to feel anxiety..I guess I am dcared with the concept of getting closer to you everyday, only to realize that in due time it will all mean nothing. While your loving him, I'll be loving you. damnit why can't we just keep it together. damnit damnit. How do I prepare for this?
Thinking is stupid.

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