Bad, bad night
My knee hurts a lot. My arm is bruised and scrapped. My head and my heart hurt so bad. I can't be like this anymore, I'm crying so hard, and I just want o escape everything. this life, this this this this this....ME! Today.....the early part of the day was sooooooo amazing, and then the night.....just had to get fucked up. I had to fuck up. We all had to fuck up. I am so sad, and confused, and I don;'t know what to do. Where do I turn when theres no where else to go?! Is this it? Have I finally gone far enough? Cani Please break now, and build myself back up into someone into a woman? Please
Dear God,
I am on my last leg of sanity. I don't want to get drunk and high to be able to function with out being sad. I want to be able to lovE, live and eal with maturity. I am willing to hurt, and go through rough times, and I am willing to give up everything I thought I knew, just to be able to to be ahppy, content, and to be able to make amends with all those I hav hurt, and to all those I have loved. my heart is big, swollen, and it's skipping beats in a irrational fashion. Hold me tonight, and keep me safew from myself and from those I love. help me be strong enough to not pick up the bottle, strongh enough to walk away, and stongh enough to say I am sorry. I need tYOU now more then every god, more then ever. I am here waiting for you,......Please. I am fading, and fading fast. Nothing too lose, but so much to gain.
Be that which you love.
Dear God,
I am on my last leg of sanity. I don't want to get drunk and high to be able to function with out being sad. I want to be able to lovE, live and eal with maturity. I am willing to hurt, and go through rough times, and I am willing to give up everything I thought I knew, just to be able to to be ahppy, content, and to be able to make amends with all those I hav hurt, and to all those I have loved. my heart is big, swollen, and it's skipping beats in a irrational fashion. Hold me tonight, and keep me safew from myself and from those I love. help me be strong enough to not pick up the bottle, strongh enough to walk away, and stongh enough to say I am sorry. I need tYOU now more then every god, more then ever. I am here waiting for you,......Please. I am fading, and fading fast. Nothing too lose, but so much to gain.
Be that which you love.