Everybody knows you cried last night...

[rachz]

I don't really know what to do with myself. I wish I had someone I could talk to that I thought would actually care enough  to listen. Someone who'd listen and who I could talk to without feeling like a liability and a bore. Someone who could help me feel less shit about everything. You'd think my own parents would be good possible candidates for this role. But after Mother saying some things when we were out shopping with Alex that she knew after I had a talk with her would upset me a lot, and then just laughing when I got upset about it. And my father getting pissed off with me every time I try to say anything... I don't know...

I hate the holidays.
Too much of doing nothing.
Too much time to wallow, I guess.

Today I sat all day waiting for something to happen... I watched a couple of movies, waiting for something to happen... but it didn't. I don't even know what I'm waiting for any more...

Haha, sorry guise. I'm fed up with moaning at people. I do it too much. So you have to put up with my indirect vents here. ¬_¬;;