How "FAbULouS"...
Well life has been a true adventure for me the last couple of weeks. I'm actually starting to struggle in school...that was very unexpected. I was really wingin it without studying or reading or anything and then...all of a sudden...BOOM! it got real hard. College drags. And my position is just like Shelly's. I have a boyfriend, but I really like another boy too. I am really trying hard to get this resolved with myself. I can't choose one, but it's wrong to choose both. I can't play either of them...I respect them too much. Well and heres the catch. The one I like is my ex! So its real hard not to cheat on my man when I already done did stuff with the ex. But it's wrong, so I hold out no matter how much a want to touch his lips, kiss his kneck...aaaahhhhhh. DaNg IT! well I think I have an idea. How about I just don't have a boyfriend at all? that sounds pretty good to me. I wanna be able to go out with guy friends and to parties without being accused of cheating, or being a hoe. But I don't wanna hurt Jon...alright, I think I will tell him that I do care about him I just need space and I wanna see other people, and he can do the same. I wonder if that will sound as good to him as it does to me??? I don't wanna become anyones enemy here...Why is this always a dilemma for me? I hate it when 5 billion people like me. j/k. Well this always seems to be an issue. So I think I need to do something different. Like DONT HAVE ANYBODY!!! yeah that one sounds the most logical at this point. But I'm not gonna act on my feelings now. I'll wait it out, at least three weeks to figure out what I really wanna do. I wouldn't want any more regrets... I just wanna have fun.