CALIFORNIAAA, CALIFORNIAA HERE WE COME ...
wow, what a miracle! rachel's updating!
so yeah, it's been pretty rough after meghan & shauna have passed on, but i think people are starting to cope. it was so fricking sad i can't even put it into words. we waited 4 1/2 hours at the wake. so many people came. so many people loved them. two beautiful girls who i hardly knew, but never should have died. school's been tough after the loss, but people are really pulling together. <3
robyn, michelle, carolyn, danielle, taylor, carly, kristen, kristen, emmy, jen, alex, julia, krista
i don't know where i'd be without you girls. i love you guys to death, don't ever forget that. you have been there for me through everything and i can't begin to thank you enough. you are amazing, beautiful, caring, funny girls who i could not live without. never forget how much i love and care about you. i don't know what i'd do if i ever lost you.
so otherwise, things have been preeeettty good. friday was like amazing. baked with robyn and ate tons of frosting and cake and just laughed and talked with care and michelle. then went to the movies. ahh, it was great. <3 things with the boy are pretty sweet. i felt so happy. like so so so happpyy. :) i just don't think i can do it right now. i don't want commitment. i can't handle it. why is it so hard to trust guys? ♥ alhgkljajskjklajhjhkljsdklgj87ewjklfjsl. whatever. saturday i went to the football game in the pouring rain. it was kinda fun. even though we lost. we suck. 20-0. come on, boys. but yeah, robyn has all the pictures on her computer.. i'll be doing a large update with those. hopefully. that's pretty much it. my birthday = 15 days. sa-wheeeeeet. and i get to see camp kids on my birthday. and we're going out for mexican. and matt's playing his guitar and singing for me in front of everyone. hahah i <3 him.
have you ever wanted to just like get away and start over? i mean, i love my friends to death but i wish i could just start fresh. its not that i have all these huge major regrets, it's just i want to start over being the person i want to be. i wanna be happy again. i wanna be myself through and through. i wanna make friends who know the real me, and love it. northboro is great, i just want more. me and mik are moving to california. actually, we're spending the summer there when i finally turn 16. road trip, baby. i love him so muchh. i don't know what i'd do without a best friend like him. i really don't. okay, now i'm really done.
so yeah, it's been pretty rough after meghan & shauna have passed on, but i think people are starting to cope. it was so fricking sad i can't even put it into words. we waited 4 1/2 hours at the wake. so many people came. so many people loved them. two beautiful girls who i hardly knew, but never should have died. school's been tough after the loss, but people are really pulling together. <3
robyn, michelle, carolyn, danielle, taylor, carly, kristen, kristen, emmy, jen, alex, julia, krista
i don't know where i'd be without you girls. i love you guys to death, don't ever forget that. you have been there for me through everything and i can't begin to thank you enough. you are amazing, beautiful, caring, funny girls who i could not live without. never forget how much i love and care about you. i don't know what i'd do if i ever lost you.
so otherwise, things have been preeeettty good. friday was like amazing. baked with robyn and ate tons of frosting and cake and just laughed and talked with care and michelle. then went to the movies. ahh, it was great. <3 things with the boy are pretty sweet. i felt so happy. like so so so happpyy. :) i just don't think i can do it right now. i don't want commitment. i can't handle it. why is it so hard to trust guys? ♥ alhgkljajskjklajhjhkljsdklgj87ewjklfjsl. whatever. saturday i went to the football game in the pouring rain. it was kinda fun. even though we lost. we suck. 20-0. come on, boys. but yeah, robyn has all the pictures on her computer.. i'll be doing a large update with those. hopefully. that's pretty much it. my birthday = 15 days. sa-wheeeeeet. and i get to see camp kids on my birthday. and we're going out for mexican. and matt's playing his guitar and singing for me in front of everyone. hahah i <3 him.
have you ever wanted to just like get away and start over? i mean, i love my friends to death but i wish i could just start fresh. its not that i have all these huge major regrets, it's just i want to start over being the person i want to be. i wanna be happy again. i wanna be myself through and through. i wanna make friends who know the real me, and love it. northboro is great, i just want more. me and mik are moving to california. actually, we're spending the summer there when i finally turn 16. road trip, baby. i love him so muchh. i don't know what i'd do without a best friend like him. i really don't. okay, now i'm really done.