when i get a certain feeling i confess it ..
i must say this grey [or gray? i'm not really sure anymore] drab weather has killed my it-feels-like-summer allusion. bummer.
alright, summer is deffinately approaching fast, not only because i cant count how many days are left of school on my fingers, but for many others too;
we've been cranking the AC for about 2 weeks ♥ we have LEMONDADE ♥ guys aren't the only ones wearing shorts anymore ♥ i've read journal entries about hitting the beach ♥ i've been swimming 3 times and i don't have a pool ♥ i have a tan line [who cares if its from soccer :x] ♥ and many others.
ohh sweet summertime =]
i've recently become addicted to myspace. wonderful, another awful addiction to add to my life. i've gotten amaingly good at those "play this game and win a free (insert greatly wanted eletronic toy here)" I used to never win at the frog one where you have to catch the flies [its pretty hard] but now i'm a pro. the one with the kid smashing the mailboxes is by far my fav though. hahaha i just re-read what i wrote and must sound like the biggest idoit, but if i don't care you shouldn't either! they're great boredom busters. just like madlibs are. wow, me & the guys were doing them in english and i pretty much peed my pants from laughter. not literally of course. =P it was great though.
i hope summer turns out to be a good one, i really do. it's probably gonna be the last time i really hang out with certain people which makes me sad. like extremely sad. i've been upset about how much everythings gonna change. people aren't seeming to get it. i'm not fricking depressed, i've just been thinking alot. i'm not a person easily adaptable to change, although it may seem it suits me well on the outside. i've just watched my friends come and go and people change so much. i know i've changed too, and i'd probably be scared for me if i was my friend. if that makes sence? i guess i've just realized i care so much more about people then they do about me. and when you realize that, that feeling sucks. knowing they mean more to you then you do to them isn't my idea of a great feeling. i'm hoping things will sizzle out during the summer and things will fall into place by fall. wow, that seems like so far away.
its really hit me how much i'm gonna miss MMS. i mean, i made some of my best friends in the world here, and if high school has any intention of changing that, i'll be pissed. i love you guys, i really really do. i'm sorry if we've had run-ins or anything, but i want to end on a good note. =] 8th grade has been so much fun, i've gotten close and even closer to people and for once it's really felt good. all of it ending next thursday doesn't seem possible. i know i'm gonna sound like a dork saying this, but i'll be surprised if i don't cry at graduation. i really don't want to move on. but i think i'm scared to admit things are going really good, and to let myself be happy because when you are, something bad always happens.
ps. this is the first entry in a really long time where i haven't bored you with all the events of my school day. woo-hoo. ♥
alright, summer is deffinately approaching fast, not only because i cant count how many days are left of school on my fingers, but for many others too;
we've been cranking the AC for about 2 weeks ♥ we have LEMONDADE ♥ guys aren't the only ones wearing shorts anymore ♥ i've read journal entries about hitting the beach ♥ i've been swimming 3 times and i don't have a pool ♥ i have a tan line [who cares if its from soccer :x] ♥ and many others.
ohh sweet summertime =]
i've recently become addicted to myspace. wonderful, another awful addiction to add to my life. i've gotten amaingly good at those "play this game and win a free (insert greatly wanted eletronic toy here)" I used to never win at the frog one where you have to catch the flies [its pretty hard] but now i'm a pro. the one with the kid smashing the mailboxes is by far my fav though. hahaha i just re-read what i wrote and must sound like the biggest idoit, but if i don't care you shouldn't either! they're great boredom busters. just like madlibs are. wow, me & the guys were doing them in english and i pretty much peed my pants from laughter. not literally of course. =P it was great though.
i hope summer turns out to be a good one, i really do. it's probably gonna be the last time i really hang out with certain people which makes me sad. like extremely sad. i've been upset about how much everythings gonna change. people aren't seeming to get it. i'm not fricking depressed, i've just been thinking alot. i'm not a person easily adaptable to change, although it may seem it suits me well on the outside. i've just watched my friends come and go and people change so much. i know i've changed too, and i'd probably be scared for me if i was my friend. if that makes sence? i guess i've just realized i care so much more about people then they do about me. and when you realize that, that feeling sucks. knowing they mean more to you then you do to them isn't my idea of a great feeling. i'm hoping things will sizzle out during the summer and things will fall into place by fall. wow, that seems like so far away.
its really hit me how much i'm gonna miss MMS. i mean, i made some of my best friends in the world here, and if high school has any intention of changing that, i'll be pissed. i love you guys, i really really do. i'm sorry if we've had run-ins or anything, but i want to end on a good note. =] 8th grade has been so much fun, i've gotten close and even closer to people and for once it's really felt good. all of it ending next thursday doesn't seem possible. i know i'm gonna sound like a dork saying this, but i'll be surprised if i don't cry at graduation. i really don't want to move on. but i think i'm scared to admit things are going really good, and to let myself be happy because when you are, something bad always happens.
ps. this is the first entry in a really long time where i haven't bored you with all the events of my school day. woo-hoo. ♥