My amazing life.
So today was a good day. I woke up next to Samuel and watched him sleep for a little while before taking a shower and then enevidably cleaning my house. {-the kitchen}. I fought with Ryan breifly, thats always a nice way to start the day. But all things aside I am happy. Me n J Tutt were big blowin eariler. <3 Just wanted an excuse to say big blowin! But yea it was good. Recreational drug use has become something close to me. If that makes sense. Ive been killing myself tring to figure out why i never did this when I was in HS. Damn nij, all them times I would go to Dunbars house? Wow. Speaking of which, I miss her a lot recently. We havent talking in over a yr, yr n haif most likley. But irregaurdless, i have love for her. Ive been thinking about lots of friends past recently. Like Kaylizza Kelleezy ect. I very happy to see that they are doing stuff with their lives. Whereas myself, I dont know what Im doing.
I have been thinking hard about cosmotology school. I mean, duh I wont get $rich$ off of it, but hey, I think it could be something I would really enjoy. I think giving people make overs and new looks is an amazing feeling. The confidense that comes from having a new look, and the empowered feeling that creates this almost euphoric state of mind is GREAT. I heart hair. But who knows! I know that there arent always good situations that come with doing hair, because believe me, I have gotten some throwed off ass hair done from some people. But still i think the good would out weigh the bad. Good fun!
Im talking to my brother right now. I miss him so much it sucks because hes growing up so fast and I dont feel like I am there enough for him. This fights him n my mom get into remind me of my youth. And I feel as if I have so much I could teach him and give to him. But distance hath separated us. Like I dont like how he goes out and does god knows what with god knows who. Hes so little and easily influanced that I worry he will get in either A.) the wrong situation or B.) be at the wrong place at the wrong time. But I guess I can't stop the enevidable. He will have to live first and learn second. I have just been informed that he has started driving. My heart sings the song of breaking because I wasnt there to see it. But hey, the sooner hes mobile and driving the quicker he can get up here to visit. B/c Nac to the H and back is not what it is.
Like nu nu says, so many blessings. I feel extaticly calm. _oxymoron_
Love you bitches!
Rachel!
I have been thinking hard about cosmotology school. I mean, duh I wont get $rich$ off of it, but hey, I think it could be something I would really enjoy. I think giving people make overs and new looks is an amazing feeling. The confidense that comes from having a new look, and the empowered feeling that creates this almost euphoric state of mind is GREAT. I heart hair. But who knows! I know that there arent always good situations that come with doing hair, because believe me, I have gotten some throwed off ass hair done from some people. But still i think the good would out weigh the bad. Good fun!
Im talking to my brother right now. I miss him so much it sucks because hes growing up so fast and I dont feel like I am there enough for him. This fights him n my mom get into remind me of my youth. And I feel as if I have so much I could teach him and give to him. But distance hath separated us. Like I dont like how he goes out and does god knows what with god knows who. Hes so little and easily influanced that I worry he will get in either A.) the wrong situation or B.) be at the wrong place at the wrong time. But I guess I can't stop the enevidable. He will have to live first and learn second. I have just been informed that he has started driving. My heart sings the song of breaking because I wasnt there to see it. But hey, the sooner hes mobile and driving the quicker he can get up here to visit. B/c Nac to the H and back is not what it is.
Like nu nu says, so many blessings. I feel extaticly calm. _oxymoron_
Love you bitches!
Rachel!