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so, i am definitely having gastric bypass surgery.
i was ready to set my surgery date, but that can't happen quite yet as i have a few issues to take care of. i have a fantastic staph infection now, which EATS SHIT but it actually probably sounds a lot worse than it is. i don't really feel sick from it, which apparently is extremely fortunate. i am grateful for good fortune wherever i can get it! my lab results otherwise are good. my liver function is slightly poor, but not too bad, and my abdominal ultrasound revealed an enlarged liver and a hiatal hernia, but it looks like i can probably wait and get the liver biopsy and hernia repair both done at the same time as the bypass surgery, so WOOHOO to that. i mean, it's not like i'll know the difference. i'll be wicked knocked out, so they can cut me up in whichever ways necessary!
i'm very VERY excited, but also super nervous. most of my anxiety has to do with anesthesia, as it scares me nearly to death. however, the idea of probably not needing my cpap to breathe with every g d night, having my diabetes almost or completely be "cured", much less body pain, more energy, and even being able to shop for clothes a lot easier...all of these thrill me. there's actually a much longer list of how my life and health should be greatly improved, assuming i follow all post-surgery instructions, but those are the first that come to mind.
hopefully once i heal up i can get a full-time job again, doing something i enjoy, and not have to be the sickie. i can put an end to the social security situation, and save it for when i retire. well. except that it may be gone by then. that's ok. :) i want to NOT need it now.
i will not have to purchase two plane tickets to go somewhere. i will not be harassed for being fat. i recently actually faced a great deal of the fat prejudice as witnessed by my friends vektor and ebgoddess, so it was at least nice to be incensed with a couple of other people, and not just myself. fat-hating bastards! I WILL KILL THEM. well, no. but i may kick them all in the jimmy.
things are going fairly well, really. my family is doing well, my friends are for the most part doing well, and i'm so far surviving the heat of the summer. of course, the first heat wave of over 100 degree heat happened while i was in seattle, so i'm knocking on wood right now.
the main ordeal i'm dealing with now is the fact that the LOST season finale aired a couple of weeks ago, so no new episodes for months. that is my primary disappointment in life. ;)
hope everyone is doing well, and for those of you who are having the bullshit heat waves, may you stay cool and hydrated. WEAR SUNSCREEN. REAPPLY IT OFTEN. i made the mistake of believing i was properly protected, and apparently didn't reapply sufficiently as i have a definite tan on my arms and chest. BASTARDS.
i was ready to set my surgery date, but that can't happen quite yet as i have a few issues to take care of. i have a fantastic staph infection now, which EATS SHIT but it actually probably sounds a lot worse than it is. i don't really feel sick from it, which apparently is extremely fortunate. i am grateful for good fortune wherever i can get it! my lab results otherwise are good. my liver function is slightly poor, but not too bad, and my abdominal ultrasound revealed an enlarged liver and a hiatal hernia, but it looks like i can probably wait and get the liver biopsy and hernia repair both done at the same time as the bypass surgery, so WOOHOO to that. i mean, it's not like i'll know the difference. i'll be wicked knocked out, so they can cut me up in whichever ways necessary!
i'm very VERY excited, but also super nervous. most of my anxiety has to do with anesthesia, as it scares me nearly to death. however, the idea of probably not needing my cpap to breathe with every g d night, having my diabetes almost or completely be "cured", much less body pain, more energy, and even being able to shop for clothes a lot easier...all of these thrill me. there's actually a much longer list of how my life and health should be greatly improved, assuming i follow all post-surgery instructions, but those are the first that come to mind.
hopefully once i heal up i can get a full-time job again, doing something i enjoy, and not have to be the sickie. i can put an end to the social security situation, and save it for when i retire. well. except that it may be gone by then. that's ok. :) i want to NOT need it now.
i will not have to purchase two plane tickets to go somewhere. i will not be harassed for being fat. i recently actually faced a great deal of the fat prejudice as witnessed by my friends vektor and ebgoddess, so it was at least nice to be incensed with a couple of other people, and not just myself. fat-hating bastards! I WILL KILL THEM. well, no. but i may kick them all in the jimmy.
things are going fairly well, really. my family is doing well, my friends are for the most part doing well, and i'm so far surviving the heat of the summer. of course, the first heat wave of over 100 degree heat happened while i was in seattle, so i'm knocking on wood right now.
the main ordeal i'm dealing with now is the fact that the LOST season finale aired a couple of weeks ago, so no new episodes for months. that is my primary disappointment in life. ;)
hope everyone is doing well, and for those of you who are having the bullshit heat waves, may you stay cool and hydrated. WEAR SUNSCREEN. REAPPLY IT OFTEN. i made the mistake of believing i was properly protected, and apparently didn't reapply sufficiently as i have a definite tan on my arms and chest. BASTARDS.