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so.
i think its probably about time that i end my livejournal hiatus.
i guess i needed some time away from updating this thing. becasue we all knwo that i updated ohsofrequently. that's not the point.
my livejournal, had most aspects of my relationship with the infamous tyler on it. and i a) don't have the heart to delete the posts;; b) don't want to give up such a huge part of my life. and previously, i really just coudln'thandle seeing any of these entries. i promise i did read everyone of all of yours though. just because i don't always comment, doesn't mean i never kept up with you guys.
i am finally able to say that i am over this boy. life carries on.
in a sense it feels like nothing really matters as much. things that would used to mean such a great deal to me, seem trivial in comparison.
sometimes its a break up that hurts the most. you entrust so much, devote so much love, in a person, and to wake up one day and have everything gone, is just more then i was ready to handle at the time. it makes you question everything you believe in, everything you stand for.. everything you are.
for an f.y.i. to those of you that knew of my feelings for him;; that recent boy.. the one that seemed to help me to realize so much, helped me to finally move on, is now no more then a friend. && its sad, but i am okay with this. if it is meant to be then it will happen.
i love you all very dearly.
♥