jesus is my only friend
SO I guess I'm not as good at updating as I thought I would be:)
School is busy, yikes.. but I am managing thank goodness.. Only a few days left of this class and then I am off to Florida with my mom. yay! That is exciting for sure. Then right back to school, and then Copeland concert! So excited soooooooooo excited.
My emotions are killing me right now. I don't know my place.. I don't know where I belong, I don't know what I am supposed to be doing. I'm so out of control and helpless in so many areas, it's so frusterating
My heart is overloaded, and slightly cracking
Maybe a week with just my mommy will help me a bit. I feel like I just give so much of myself in my friendships.. in my relationships... and I dont know what else I can do... It's emotionally draining.
and the worste part is, I feel distant from God too. I have a huge burden on me I WANT to get rid of.. and it's sticking to me tighter than glue. What if this means that what I want isnt what is supposed to happen.. Just thinking about this makes my head spin and the pit in my stomach grow larger.
college is not what I thought, in some ways it is so much better, in other ways, it is alot worse.. I guess I figured life would be perfect by now. Perfect life, perfect grades, perfect friends, perfect boyfriend-- WRONG.
School is busy, yikes.. but I am managing thank goodness.. Only a few days left of this class and then I am off to Florida with my mom. yay! That is exciting for sure. Then right back to school, and then Copeland concert! So excited soooooooooo excited.
My emotions are killing me right now. I don't know my place.. I don't know where I belong, I don't know what I am supposed to be doing. I'm so out of control and helpless in so many areas, it's so frusterating
My heart is overloaded, and slightly cracking
Maybe a week with just my mommy will help me a bit. I feel like I just give so much of myself in my friendships.. in my relationships... and I dont know what else I can do... It's emotionally draining.
and the worste part is, I feel distant from God too. I have a huge burden on me I WANT to get rid of.. and it's sticking to me tighter than glue. What if this means that what I want isnt what is supposed to happen.. Just thinking about this makes my head spin and the pit in my stomach grow larger.
college is not what I thought, in some ways it is so much better, in other ways, it is alot worse.. I guess I figured life would be perfect by now. Perfect life, perfect grades, perfect friends, perfect boyfriend-- WRONG.