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last day in huntington until christmas. not that it's far away. it's been a good week. i've seen a lot of people from high school that i wasn't expecting to see. it's been a pleasant surprise to be happy to see them rather than hold on to the disdain i felt toward a lot of them during senior year. i think i'm still seen by most of my former classmates as kind of a jerk, which is at least partially warranted, and that makes coming home a little hard. but this has been the first trip i have really enjoyed since freshman year.
things with my mom feel kind of tense. i haven't been around a lot this week, and her sister is here, so i'm trying to give them some time together. sometimes i find it tough to strike a balance between all the people i want to visit with when i come home, and i think this time around maybe i didn't do such a good job. i've been spending pretty much every possible minute with ben. we're... well who knows what. we're in limbo, i guess, but a good kind of limbo. when we're home, at least, we're together, and that's pretty exciting.
thanksgiving was so lovely. we had the most delicious meal, and the sigmons came down with gillian and uncle chris, aunt amy was here and matt rowe came for dessert. we all got along so well and hung out after dinner playing taboo. it's made me look forward so much to christmas, when we'll be doing it all again. maybe even more of the family will be around then. i appreciate my family so much more these days than i used to. i really am a lucky girl.
lately i've had the opportunity to step outside my cushy existence and become aware of how good i have it. i was and am so well taken care of by my family and friends. i'm lucky enough to have both my parents healthy, and they're still married. i am literally living out the future i hoped for while i was in high school. i might be going back to italy this summer, and katie and ben are both thinking of going, too. i've never been beaten. i grew up in a good neighborhood and always had what i needed and a lot of the things i wanted. i'm just awfully thankful for all that.
things with my mom feel kind of tense. i haven't been around a lot this week, and her sister is here, so i'm trying to give them some time together. sometimes i find it tough to strike a balance between all the people i want to visit with when i come home, and i think this time around maybe i didn't do such a good job. i've been spending pretty much every possible minute with ben. we're... well who knows what. we're in limbo, i guess, but a good kind of limbo. when we're home, at least, we're together, and that's pretty exciting.
thanksgiving was so lovely. we had the most delicious meal, and the sigmons came down with gillian and uncle chris, aunt amy was here and matt rowe came for dessert. we all got along so well and hung out after dinner playing taboo. it's made me look forward so much to christmas, when we'll be doing it all again. maybe even more of the family will be around then. i appreciate my family so much more these days than i used to. i really am a lucky girl.
lately i've had the opportunity to step outside my cushy existence and become aware of how good i have it. i was and am so well taken care of by my family and friends. i'm lucky enough to have both my parents healthy, and they're still married. i am literally living out the future i hoped for while i was in high school. i might be going back to italy this summer, and katie and ben are both thinking of going, too. i've never been beaten. i grew up in a good neighborhood and always had what i needed and a lot of the things i wanted. i'm just awfully thankful for all that.