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holla. i'm sittin at my kitchen table. i just finished a tasty meal i made all by myself. oven roasted salmon in a yellow pepper saffron sauce. it sounds fancier than it is.
i am very, very happy. lately i've been thinking about how i felt when i came to athens and the kinds of goals i set for myself, the kind of life i wanted to be living and the kind of person i wanted to be. then i look at my life now and realize how similar the life i hoped for is to the life i'm living. it's incredibly gratifying. i've built a real, whole life for myself here, and, i think, i've actually made some of the changes i've been telling myself i should make since high school. going to italy altered something about me, and though i don't know exactly how to quantify it, i've noticed people responding to me in a more positive way since i got back. i don't feel uncomfortable or anxious as much as i used to.
i miss a lot of my friends. there's a real distance between me and some of the people i care about that i can't seem to figure out how to bridge. it's not that i haven't made efforts, either. maybe it's just time to walk away from those people emotionally, but i'm having trouble doing so. i don't like letting go of things like that. i'm certainly not good at it.
oh well. i'd say these days the good outweighs the bad pretty significantly.
i am very, very happy. lately i've been thinking about how i felt when i came to athens and the kinds of goals i set for myself, the kind of life i wanted to be living and the kind of person i wanted to be. then i look at my life now and realize how similar the life i hoped for is to the life i'm living. it's incredibly gratifying. i've built a real, whole life for myself here, and, i think, i've actually made some of the changes i've been telling myself i should make since high school. going to italy altered something about me, and though i don't know exactly how to quantify it, i've noticed people responding to me in a more positive way since i got back. i don't feel uncomfortable or anxious as much as i used to.
i miss a lot of my friends. there's a real distance between me and some of the people i care about that i can't seem to figure out how to bridge. it's not that i haven't made efforts, either. maybe it's just time to walk away from those people emotionally, but i'm having trouble doing so. i don't like letting go of things like that. i'm certainly not good at it.
oh well. i'd say these days the good outweighs the bad pretty significantly.